Date: May 19 1996 4:35 PM EDTFrom: melito@interramp.com (Tom & Nancy Melito)Dear Robert,Continued kudos on a job very well done. Your journal is always a treat,and the mailbag has more than sufficiently expressed my sentiments on thematters at hand, especially the situation regarding GDP. One minor nitregarding the "Giant's Harp," (which I have found to be strikingly beautifulin places). You have introduced many characters (all of which havenon-standard names), which makes it difficult to keep track of all of themweek to week. This probably wouldn't be a problem if I read it all at once,but in the spirit of 19th century serialization, I'm reading it as it comes.How about a mini-glossary?The main reason I'm writing is in response to your "Self-Reliance/1996,"page, which was present for only a few days. This document spurred quite abit of discussion between my wife and I. I found it to be very moving andthought provoking, expressing many of my own beliefs on religion andindividuality. Her reaction was less positive. She was put off by yourcomment that "culture is disintegrating," and your association of this withthe millennium. She quite fairly points out that such sentiments have beenraised as far back as Cicero and are quite often used by the forces ofoppression.My own reading of it focused on your thoughts on private conscience, thecorrosiveness of the fear of Hell, and rebellious spirits. She focused onyour use of rhetorical tools that have sometimes been used to launch (andexcuse) the very oppression you decry. Certainly fueled quite a bit of debate.I'm personally not ready to declare the end of culture, or anything elsewith the coming of the next millennium. My own (clearly warped) perspectivesees the potential for both the greatest and worst age of mankind ahead.The tools and capacities that are or will be available to individuals areextraordinary, truly magical from an historical perspective. But the sameunderlying narrowness and fear persists, ready to toss it all away for justa little certitude and safety.I'm also not sure what the state of our culture is (or how to judge it). Mymost precious outlet for creativity and community is now gone (or undergoinga major transformation), but quite a bit exists (or will emerge) to sustainmy spirit. Experience Babylon-5 if you haven't already or the music of theIndigo-Girls. The Internet has offered me a lifetimes worth of exploration,with just the click of a mouse. I suspect that the schlock that attractsand drives the masses has forever been so (and I feel uncomfortably elitistto make even that generalization). What factors are you basing yourpessimism on?I hope the days ahead are bright ones for the organization. You are quitecorrect to reject the notion of us sending money. I'm an economist byprofession, and GDP does need to stand the market test to truly survive.Your greatest resource is an open minded, adventurous and dedicatedclientele. Deadheads will embrace your efforts as long as you keepapproaching it in the right spirit. Let us look back on this time as the"Days Between."Tom MelitoTom and Nancy,first - thanks for the good words on my site. Will get right to work on all points, including the text only files and a short index of the Giant's Harp characters. My dad had the same objection and thought I should change the names for easier reference, but they just seem to be the appropriate names for those characters and there you have it.Nancy's points are well taken. The essay was actually written in 1992 and only edited recently - mostly cuts where it wandered too far afield. It was originally written as an exercise in borrowing the tone, vocabulary and stylistics of Ralph Waldo Emerson, the early 19th century New England transcendentalist. His style is kin to Wordsworth. Nancy is correct in detecting the style of the "oppressor" in this, though Emerson was part of the solution, rather than the problem. High falutin' words in just that tone, the "official voice" of the dominant western male, in service of imperialism and the status quo, were the problem.I am what I am, and cannot escape being: a western male writer. Obviously the "culture" which my upbringing has taught me to represent is western, with its roots in Europe. I've always found it convenient to go with it, rather than try to become what someone else is and never quite make the grade.When that culture dies, my work dies with it, based as it often is on traditional modes of West European song filtered through Appalachia and re-shaped by 1001 pop and folk influences. I don't know what continuing pluralization of culture portends, but one would be foolish to fight dynamic change or put it down.This leaves a writer of my age, limits and experience, with some pretty big problems. I look for alternatives in that existential situation and sometimes believe I've found them. If western culture is dissolving in the face of plurality, which it seems it must do, it would seem reasonable to help usher it out gracefully, aware that when it goes, I go with it.The upside of this, personally, is that I'll be of an age to go out with it - no complaint there. The melancholy of the situation is the understanding that there may be no place for what I've left behind in a hyper-pluralized technologically oriented society of the future, except as an artifact of the attitudes of the oppressor. I'm already painfully aware of how few it speaks to. The content itself will no longer be meaningful, especially as the language evolves into an efficient global hyperglot and formulaic communication techniques become the norm of human interaction. I won't personally mind missing out on that phase of evolution, but people will still be people and hearts will be hearts. Perhaps racial/gender/religious intolerance will be vanquished by a century long re-integration following intensive pluralization. If this turns out to be the case, if such a Utopia can be realized, disease get conquered and everyone fed, housed and provided with amenable work, the disintegration of western culture should be priority number one on everyone's agenda.Nostalgia, the number one enemy of the post-modern phase of the transition, is probably the single greatest stumbling block on the way to Utopia: the chauvinistic tendency to get misty over one's early roots despite their non-alliance with rational pluralist standards. Ooh - there goes that language of the oppressor again. Every time I write an essay! Like Grace Slick said "The human race doesn't mean shit to a tree." No more than my well-fed dialogue does to the starving.I find dialectic of any stripe unconvincing, from Thomas Aquinas to Jefferson to Marx, trusting more to the intuitive resonance of what I choose to believe and propagate, hence my severely non-political stance as reflected in the Grateful Dead. My party huddles around the fire singing "don't murder me!"Self-Reliance, ala Emerson, may only be sublimated egotism for all I know. Yet, I think, in general, it's a good tool for an artist if not for a politically enlightened proletariat. Not everyone has the luxury. This is understood. And that's all I have to say about my quirky attempt at an essay. Excuse the presumption.rhSubj: Bike RaffleDate: May 20 1996 11:36 AM EDTFrom: ymike@well.com (Michael Yacavone)Robert,The URL for the bike raffle gives an Error 404--URL not found. Thismight explain the low response! Or maybe not--'coulda broken just today.Your work on dead.net is very uplifting and very deep. A heartfelt thankyou. Reading your journal makes me realize how much we each have tooffer. It inspires me to write more. Hopefully, I'll work up withsomething that matters. However, I'm also learning to not let that weightstop me from starting. Thanks for the life-lesson pointers.I just *love* seeing things like the original notes for Ripple! Thanks.Best,MikeMike,thanks for reporting. You're the only one who has done so, which shows about how busy the raffle site is.Glad you like the page. I try to keep it hopping.rhSubj: multithreaded letter(long)Date: May 19 1996 11:09 PM EDTFrom: tyler@efn.org (Tyrone 'Rocketman' Slothrop)A bunch of quick-take responses to mailbag items & such:----I'm with Xian on the well thing- I've never had the dough (or, honestly,the time to burn; from what I know those conferences would eat whatlittle is left of my life) to join, but they have positive energy likeliterally no other site on the net.-----I've been surprised that Barlow is not involved in Deadnet. I know he'sbusy, but...it's just such fertile ground, and he is a Class A heavyweightnet.presence. If there's no real reason, or it's none of my business, nemmind.-----The movie script is hysterical. Of course you realize computer animationshave reached the point that something in that line would almost be *doable*;which isn't the point, yes I know, but it's an amusing idea. Good to seesome cussing on the site finally. OK if I turn you in to the feds? Kidding.Ghods, is it difficult to express thing like irony or sarcasm *safely* inemail; I dislike emoticons and won't use them. Though it's all justlanguage, email, newsgroups and the like are so frigging postmodern it'ssick- every written item is being digested & interpreted in who knows howmany different contexts. Coupled with the 'poor impulse control' problem(flaming; that is, when folks a)don't take the time to rethink beforesending and/or b) don't care 'cause they figure there's no repercussionsfrom mistreating another person as long as they're somewhere else) thisstyle problem makes the internet a much less civil place than it should be.(ahem) another problem is the proliferation of excessively lengthy asides*muffled cough*-----put a navigation bar on *every* page on the site, bro. Anyone who entersanywhere but the front Dead page has a terrible time getting around- youhave to go edit the URL if the Back button doesn't take you anywhere. Iknow you're trying to get folks to enter thru www.dead.net but you shouldn'tpenalize those who don't, who may have good reasons (such as bookmarkingthe Hotline page in an effort to keep up with the chaos surrounding theVeneta show, and then wishing to visit your pages after checking in there)to enter in a subsidiary location. A site as humongous as Deadnet isgonna be needs an efficient navigation system; this, in my opinion, isthe *only* legitimate use of frames, if you're up to that.----okay, my actual reason for writing- yes, I have one- was sparked by yourexchange with the writer named Melody:Can you fix my 'puter? You see, the damn thing...no, kidding again...About finding """God""" (a concept so nebulous one set of quotes fails todo it justice) on the internet: a very interesting question. Your answer,as I remember, was more or less that God is everywhere so why not theNet? Well, though that's true (or at least it's what Gautama Buddha,Albert Einstein or Mr. Natural would say if you could get a straightanswer out of them) it seems to miss a bit of the point.God, or Whatever, may be Everywhere, but some parts of it are a lot moreinteresting than others. The part that the GD were uniquely good at wasbuilding something that for lack of a better term I call hypercommunity;community that at times, to a point, begins to erase the distinctionbetween the individuals within it. Not in a fascist or regressive way,never without permission (theoretically), the love which drives theformation of such a hypercommunity gradually blurs or spreads each withinthe group out over the whole.(the mechanism for this may be one of the great many things which will becomemore clear in the relatively near future- the works of Danah Zohar & KenWilber, especially, and most especially when taken together, seem to be usefulin approaching the How, for those who care. Both are writers with ideasstrong enough to cause out-of-body experiences in unprepared readers)Now, if I'm right, the Unspoken Thing, IT, the thing that happened atshows that we all want to make sure keeps happening as regularly aspossible- it has something to do with that merging, the loss of capital-SSelf in the big Whatever It Is that forms over the floor. Subjectiveperception of it varies infinitely, from "wow, I just really got out ofmy head and danced" to "and then I Melded my Soul with the Great SpiralFloating Group-Mind Thingy and Entered the Infinite" & many more besides.But the ability to join together, and the implications that gift has, isthe treasure we are trying to protect...right? Once you've been Therewith someone they are nevermore a stranger...right?Can we do That over the internet? Of course not. It's useless in thatregard, science fiction "jack-in your brain" hoo-ha aside. Even if such athing were available the idea of plugging my actual nervous system intosomething as badly designed as the Net seems incredibly stupid. No, I thinkwe'll need to keep gathering, for the foreseeable future anyway. Shucks.Is the Net useless, then? Once again: of course not! It's a communicationtool, and if we use it as such to aid to our efforts in Real Realityrather than an attempted replacement we can get a lot out of it. FranklyI thinks it's a lot like psychedelics in this respect: not enough to savethe world by itself, but quite useful nonetheless (as well as being fun,scary and difficult to understand or control) when used well. Like anyother tool, I guess.So: we can talk about It; we can plan when and where to do It; we canchat about how to do It, and why we should; we can try to figure what thenext step after that might be; we can perform all manner of usefulauxiliary functions to It on the net.I love what you're doing with the site. I think it's critical. Ingeekspeak, it's an efficiency multiplier, allowing us to focus our energywith greater effectiveness, as well as being the penultimate networking tool(second after the shows themselves). Just don't get carried away. GarbageIn, Garbage Out, my man- if none of us has a clue what to do next, allthe fancy technical crap in the world won't help a bit.Yeah, we mostly know we're the Grateful Dead now, by the way. Actually Iallus' kinda thought that, or that it was y'all and us and everyone allTogether (hi y'all) at the same time.oh well- enough drilling for one night!-tylerErisian Fields Productions"...what possesses our audience I can never know. But I feel its effects.From the stage you can feel it happening- group mind, entrainment, findyour own word for it- when they lock up you can feel it; you can feel theenergy roaring off them."-Mickey Hart (w/Jay Stevens), _Drumming at the Edge of Magic_Tyler,yeah, well, I know, like, man, I'm just whumpin up a little thingus in the flurry for whatever the hell & ain't afeard to make an idjit of myself. I know the net ain't ice cream, but any stoat in a form, innit? And so what if you get lost navigating deadnet? That's what you're supposed to do: lost, confused and left with a feeling of rational abandonment. What the hecks a sidebar? The net is half 3 zillion pages of badly formatted type with 72 dpi images - and half a dream of access to unlimited information which probably boils down to AUM or YodHeVaHe depending on whether you view it slantwise or head on.Barlow's got an open invite. He's fourteen kinds of net-heavy and no mistake. He's out fighting the big fight while I rassle with HTML and play tip the elephant with Louise. To each his own.As for newsgroups, civilizing them would be a mistake and about as reasonable to attempt as training ants to stand at attention on a Snicker's bar. One of the things the internet does real well is to provide a place for people to fume and cuss about the pointlessness of it all. Plus bust any and all attempts at pretension. As for usefulness - just how useful can somebody's estimation of the latest performance by a pack of minstrels trying to make a living with notes and bad rhyme while promoting their latest record be? You must care passionately for some particular pack to glean much significance from its set list. But hell, that's the first amendment in action and long may she wave.There is, of course, a rush of POWER at the thought that your writing will enter the eyeballs of numerous readers and excite comment. I'm as guilty as the next of rubbing that particular magic lamp. For instance, that ridiculous "Fractals of Familiarity" essay, or the quasi-Emersonian "Self-Reliance" piece. I leave them on the site to convince myself that a little presumption goes a long way.Have decided not to take my job as Webmaster so seriously. Everybody can do their own time with their homepages. I wouldn't appreciate someone sticking their nose in my goings-on here. I used to treat the web like a high-strung steed, but after 3 months of full time application (equivalent to two years of normal workdays) I begin to realize she's just a hound dog that waits under the table hoping somebody will drop a steak - and when they don't, gets up on the table and eats the butter when the family is watching TV.Emoticons are a substitute for lack of italics in email and will probably drop away when the slanties are finally enabled. I find the absence of accenting features provocative. HTML offers them, but they look so ugly I try to find a way around italics - which is, of course, to construct your sentence so that the rhythm produces the accent naturally on the intended beat. I have, on occasion, appreciated an emoticon that let me know I was being jostled rather than shoved. :) :( {drama emoticons}The movie was in fact created around the suggestion of a $30 million dollar budget with automaton animation. The studio suggested I write some love interest into it. A word to the wise guy is sufficient and I bolted. I came THAT close to spending the next year or two rewriting script under the tutelage of "those who know better than me" at a fat salary. Whew! It was suggested I move to Hollywood.er - what's a frame" Of which the only legitimate use of is? Let's see, I'll look in Xian's Internet Dictionary (Crumlish, Sybex press).Ah, here it is: " frame (n) A block of data encapsulated with a header and trailer for transmission over a network."Thanks, Xian! I will look up header and trailer later and get on with my letter.Danah Zohar & Ken Wilber? How could anybody named Ken cause out of body experiences among the unprepared? Mark, Lance, or Carlos perhaps, but . . .Ken? I'm not even sure a Kenneth could do it, but maybe I'm just prejudiced because that's my brother's name. I remember a Madame Zohar who read fortunes at Playland at the Beach in SF. You put a nickel in her and got a card. Any relation?Concerning the net, you wrote: not enough to save the world by itself, but quite useful nonetheless (as well as being fun, scary and difficult to understand or control) when used well.I much prefer that statement without the parenthesis, to wit:quite useful nonetheless as well as being fun, scary and difficult to understand or control when used well.Right then, Tyler - it was great fun reading and answering your letter. Kind of a mood I'm in today after a Monday morning spell at the office watching the sunset. O my Brother, the pain is past telling. Let us make light of it for awhile.Robert HunterSubj: frames, etcDate: May 27 1996 3:55 PM EDTFrom: tyler@efn.org (Tyrone 'Rocketman' Slothrop)Enjoyed your reply to my mail quite a bit; it's been simmering for thelast week or so, and in the next few days I'll have time to compose myresponse to the important bits. For now, though, an answer to the trivialstuff:Frames are an HTML artifact that split the viewing screen into two ormore separate scrollable areas. For example a very small 'mini-index'window can run across one edge of the screen, acting as a navigation bar(with links to the top level pages or wherever) that's always availableno matter where in the chaos you've descended to. This way you don't haveto put all that code (for the navigation links & logo if there is one) onevery page. Unfortunately, I've spent the last half hour surfing lookingfor a site that uses frames in this manner and can't find one, though Iused to have a few bookmarked, dammit.When used badly they make the screen cluttered and unusable. Frequentlystudmuffin HTML jocks designing on 21" monitors split the screen up 3 orsometimes even 4 ways in an attempt to be monster kyewel or whatever- atitle/nav window, a graphics window with Java or something in it, a mainwindow and on some sites an ad window. For a yucky-frames site, one ofvery many (though they're going out of style now, by the blessing of KuanYin, the bodhisattva of mercy and compassion), check out:http://www.rockweb.com/bands/jambaywhich is from memory, it might need a ~twiddle in there somewhere. Lovethe band, love the author, hate the site.Of course, as the Too Many Frames trend dies out, on comes theJava/Shockwave avalanche. *sigh* by next month everyone will have dancinglogos and such, I reckon. Oboy! Another way to keep folks from noticinglack of content!By the way, I allus' kinda liked the chili peppers. Not enough to vote oranything, but I never figured out what the complaining was about.Oh yeah- just heard some stuff from the mystery box. Right fucking on toyou, mickey, and everyone else! That's some Good Shit there, cuzzin, & itshould really confuse a lot of Orthodox Deadhead types, which I think isgenerally a useful thing. 'Only the Strange Remain' was my FavoriteUnperformed Hunter Lyric ever since I first got Box of Rain; now I need anew one. Hmm...A Glass of Wine at the End of Time? No, probably the last23 parts of Terrapin or however many it is now. Do you ever entertain thenotion of trying to put together a performance of the whole saga? Hah!How 'bout at the opening of Phil's Tripatorium thingy? Should give youplenty of time to get it together, I know you need more projects to keepyou busy these days.-tyler"For the free harmonycomes from all our melodiesentwined, mysteriously enabled..."-S. DotyTyler,Oh, that's what you meant by frames. Sure, I know. Don't like 'em. I put a DeadNet homepage button on my front page at your behest, though. As for further interconnection, well . . . this is kinda my, um, you know, personal thing. My own sense of taste excludes frames, guestbooks, commercial internet logos, spiraling Java letters, (I do have a weakness for animated gifs, though) pages of links, ineffective scatology and advertising. That doesn't mean I don't enthuse about things that may have a price tag on them, but the price tag isn't the point.[That's how I define my own pages - I don't mean to define anyone else's. Everything has its place. The temptation of Java is to produce overslick pages. There's much I like about Java - its potential for getting truly warped is extraordinary!]At this stage, the complete Terrapin would be a multi-media event lasting six days. As for keeping busy, I was away from my computer for 24 hours yesterday, for the first time since February. Slow email over Memorial Day allows for a lazy luxury. That doesn't mean I want people to stop sending it! Only on Sundays and Holidays.rhFrom: Steve Wright <swright@copyright.com>Subject: FW: Strength V. DependenceDate: Mon, 20 May 1996 13:58:33 -0400RH,Greetings once again, hope your weekend was pleasant. Read your entries from last week, (oh about 4 and a half minutes after I sat back in my chair), sorry it took so long, I needed coffee.Interesting comments re: 'Apparently somewhere along the line something didn't get communicated too well.' My thoughts exactly, but I guess you really can take what you need, and leave the rest...(that's as long as what you leave isn't lying, almost breathless, by the side of the road.)I wrote you last week, urging those of us who WILL be electing to 'hang in there' to continue to THRIVE in the post-Jerry environs. Passive thriving is fine. Active thriving is better.We're holding a benefit (just 18 miles north of Boston) over the weekend of August 9, 10, 11, to raise cashola for the Rex. $20 a head (literally), all the music ,spirit and fun you can possibly jam into 72 hours. Local papers are already on it; so are two college radio stations. We're hoping to raise cash; what we will raise is AWARENESS.Although I hear your voice come through your feedback '...a few people suspect money is at the root of this operation.', one might suggest that communing for the financial (and spiritual) betterment of the TRIBE is, in a word, righteousWe've all agreed that it will be called the Forward Festival. Feels right.I hope you're happy; I'm completely addicted to this damn home-page.Great edits from your Dad. I'm an editor with McGraw (Trade), best wishes to him.Best, swp.s. We're making dyes and sending them to GDP, what size?Steve,go to it and thrive! Thanks for doing for us what we're having a bit of trouble doing for ourselves. Make it dance!rhDate: Mon, 20 May 1996 00:26:54 -0400 (EDT)From: Jace <jcrouch@nova.gmi.edu>Subject: Please Update Text-Only Version of Web PageHi Bob,We need to have a GD version of "ditto" so that we can all thank you forthe poetry, the beauty, the pagentry, and the horseshit. All of it hasmade our lives richer, and I thank you sir. Hmm, maybe we should all say"Dilbert" at the top of our messages.The one major weakness in the web page is that the text only version hasnot been updated for months. I teach at a university where there arehundreds of deadheads, but most of them access web pages through aterminal that will not allow them to view graphics. We use lynx as aweb browser on my campus, but there are other text-based web browsers aswell. Most people *still* have to use those sorts of browsers rather thanNetscape or something fancier.Somehow, in all of your free time, you folks need to maintain thetext-only version of the web page. I just peeked a few moments ago, andthere is nothing about Furthur, noting about Dick's Picks 4, "What's New"is from November 95, and so on.Ah well, bitch bitch bitch. Still, this web page will soon contribute ina major way to the viability and survival of GDP. The text-based versionmay be small beer, but it, too, can contribute.Thanks again,Jace---------------------Jace Crouch, Medievalist----------------------------------Humanities & Social Sciences Department----------------------------GMI Engineering & Management Institute--------------serving in such capacities as the administration of GMI may directJace,by a strange co-incidence, I was just alerted to the "text only" problem and had just checked it out for myself. Before leaving quitting, I checked Eudora and saw your message. Got to figure out who to get to work on it.Thanks for the good words about my page. I especially valued the appellation "horseshit" because I do try to put enough in to keep it honest.rhDate: Thu, 23 May 1996 06:45:36 -0400 (EDT)From: jols@zipnet (Dancing Madly Backwards)Subject: Re: long way roundGreetings rh,>Tried to send you a message from your homepage butWoW. You actually visited my page. Thank you. And, thanks for taking thetime to find me after your first failed attempt. I appreciate it.>Wanted to say thank you for your comments. Oh, and I stole a gif>from your page. Thanks for the excellent link!I have many more comments, but take pity on you having to read and reply toso many mail message. But, what is a community if it's not interactive.Especially in this medium. I've been with Digital Equipment Corp for 25years and have a strong sense of the electronic community that can develop.We have such a community and we're called DECheads. We continue in spite ofand because of Jerry's passing. We've been 'meeting' through a networkmedium with Digital, called Notesfiles, for many years, discussing the bandand certainly your lyrics. The thought of being able to extend thatcommunity worldwide is exciting to me.Regarding the gif: ...let's see.. the only gifs I have I stole from theHuichol Yarn Art page. Any stolen image of mine is a stolen image of yours(grins).btw, in the Grateful Dead Notesfile at work we have anote discussing yourarchive and journal. I'd like to ask permission to post selected excerptsfrom your journal. There are people still without browser capabilites (hardto imagine) and there are things in your journal which I feel are importantfor people to read. Let me know if you have any objections.peace,Jay JollimoreJay,no objections to printing excerpts. It was a skull with a tophat I stole.I too feel excitement at the prospects of electronic community. I figure it's an important step toward space station living and interstellar travel. Deadheads? On Alpha Centauri? Who else??! (been there - done that)rhSubj: Dead mainstreamedDate: May 20 1996 5:31 PM EDTFrom: OldenburgD@washpost.com (Oldenburg, Don)Hey Robert Hunter--Hope e-mailing you directly is no imposition, but you've been spending alot of time on the 'net these days, so it seemed like the best way to reachyou.My name's Don Oldenburg and I live this Jeckyl-and-Hyde life as a featurewriter at The Washington Post and a longtime deadhead [actually that's anunfair exaggeration, because I find most of both of those realities aspositive as I choose to make them at any time, though I can't say this placeis exactly crawling with other deadheads :- ) ].Fact is, my first show turned out to be one that subsequent years andgenerations of deadheads looked kindly on--namely the late show on 02/13/70at the Fillmore East. My college buddies and I took the train down to NYCfrom New Haven and caught that all-nighter that essentially disentangled myneuro-transmitters, rearranged them nicely, thankyou, and sent me back outon the street the next morning with that sweet "Lay down my dear brother. .. " still echoing inside my head and the morning sunshine trying to crackthe dense morning air in the city.From that night on, I pretty much knew the Grateful Dead was the music I'dcount on and that counted for something. Probably played Dark Star everydayfor three years thereafter and remember finding it improbably to imagine notdoing so. Since then I saw plenty of shows when I could, though I nevertraveled behind the band like some folks 'cause I was too busy trying to gethold of my own life.Anyway, like for most of us, the day Jerry died changed a lot for me.Besides losing him and what might have come next of his music, that sameafternoon my third son Coley was born unexpectedly, five days early! (Abitter-sweet day, for sure. And it gave checking your newborn for all hisfingers new meaning). Now it gives me some solace to think Jerry and Coleymust've passed each other like two trains in the night.Before I get to the point of all this, I also want to tell you how much Irespect your talent, and I'm not only talking about the incredible lyricsyou've created over all these years. I saw you a couple times play live,back in the early 80s, and I think you're excellent on stage and wish I hadthe opportunity to see you play again (please). First time I heard youralbum with Rubin and Cherise on it, I couldn't believe someone could do thatsong better than the Dead did, but by God you did. Your song. Stands toreason.But enough idle (though sincere) adulation.I've got a story to write, which is why I'm contacting you.In the days since Jerry died and the band disbanded, I've noticed, bit bybit, occurrence by occurrence, product by product, things and imagesGrateful Dead emerging into mainstream American culture unlike they ever didbefore. I spend some time on the Dead list on the 'net and those"Dead-sightings" and "Jerry-sightings" occasionally reported there have beenconfirming and adding evidence to what I've seen.I bumped into it head-first soon after Jerry died when Best Buys, the hugediscount appliance chain, put Grateful Dead centers in their stores. Cripes,this is like Sears holding a Summer of Love Revisited Sale! A deadheadcenter selling keychains, hats, T-shirts, clutch-purses, tons of stuff withlittle skeletons and dancing bears on it-- that pretty much defies gravity,I figure. Then I hear that the consumer icon of middle American values,Sam's Club (the Wal-Mart spin-off), in Hagerstown, Md., was playing Deadtunes on its speaker system, presumably between announcing hot-flash salesover in the ladies department.The phenomenon doesn't stop in unlikely retail isles:--- Devil Sticks that have long been associated with Dead concerts last yearhit it bigtime in toy stores nationwide, breaking the top 10 list ofbest-selling toys.---Look in your nearby neighborhood Greeting Card shop and you're likely tofind a birthday card depicting Jerry in heaven, with a tie-dyed halo andwings, saying "you're having another birthday!" And inside: "Be Grateful!"---Dead sightings on network TV (of all places) have been abundant this pastseason: "ER," the emergency room drama, did a Jerry/Santa thing for itsChristmas show; "Roseanne" did her much hyped birth episode with Deadtunes playin' and images of Jerry appearing on the heart monitor as she gavebirth; Don Johnson's new TV series "Nash Bridges" (now there's some namefor you) did several episodes involving a subplot with Jerry stuff; "ThirdRock from The Sun" had one character identifying a Santa doll as JerryGarcia.---Lately, numerous tribute albums have appeared--and not all of them arecoming from musicians sorta connected with the band. There's a small labelcountry CD called "Long Live The Dead" covering all Dead tunes; and a prettynice reggae tribute CD to the Dead was just released. Either or both mightattract a wider audience than deadheads.----Recently, a deadhead from Boston wrote to the Dead list the observationthat 9 out of 10 people he runs into on campus or at bars wearing DeadT-shirts turn out to be "pretty clueless" when he strikes up a conversationwith them.----Why does a New York Times music critic who in years past would sometimesnot bother to review a commercial release of The Grateful Dead, suddenlyreview a Dick's Picks release that's sold primarily through Grateful DeadMerchandising (GDM) and not through stores?So why when the making of Grateful Dead music comes to a sudden and sadhalt, do Americans who wouldn't know "Dark Star" from "Samba in the Rain"suddenly discover this cultural enigma called The Grateful Dead?Some deadheads I've talked to are turned off by this kind of pop-cultureemergence now in the aftermath--especially since much of it isn't the music,which for most deadheads has always been the focus. Of course, you can'tstereotype Deadheads and expect to be right; some I've talked to delightedthat by bits and pieces the mainstream public is finding "The Grateful Dead"in its midst.I have mixed feelings about it, which in part is why I'm writing about it.Tends to be what I do, one way or the other. I suppose the merchandising of Deadhead things by GDM certainly deserves some of the blame/praise for this mainstreaming. But, in fact, for years now, those things GDM has sold via its almanac and a headshop here or there have been sold overwhelming to deadheads.Social observer Douglas Coupland (who coined the term Generation-X, and hasa new book coming out this month in which about a third is his thoughts andobservations about the "deadhead culture") told me he thought that littlekids today who wouldn't know an Elvis tune if they hear one know who Elviswas, sorta. He thinks something similar along the lines of culturelegend-making may be happening with Jerry and in a larger sense with therest of you in the Grateful Dead. I just don't know.I'd certainly appreciate hearing (reading as the case may be) your thoughtson this. Why's it happening? Have you seen some of this yourself? What'syour reaction to it? And, in bringing any comments you might have into the story, I'd like to mention your incredible website journal, so if you could say a thing or two about that, I thank you as well.Hope I haven't lost you with the length of message, but I wanted to clarifyjust what I'm doing in this story--for both our sakes. I'm trying to wrapthis piece up by Thursday or Friday (23rd, 24th), so if you'd be kind enoughto grace me with your thoughts on this, I sure could use them before that.E-mail is fine with me; so is the telephone; in-person would be great, ofcourse, but nobody here's sending me out your way.Thanks for any help you can lend.Peace. Take care --Don OldenburgThe Washington PostDon,not aware of the nerdchandising phenomenon, but then I don't get out of the house much these days, tied as I am to the web page, which is some kind of blend between sheer egotism and public service. I'll leave you to do the estimating in your article.Don't know who is doing the merchandising on the scale you speak of. I assure you no one reports to me. I doubt you find any lyric content attached to it because I'm pretty particular about where I'll let my words be lodged. No greeting cards, place maps, bibs, trivia games, tarot cards, etc.As far as recordings go, anyone may apply for a mechanical license to record a song and we have no right to refuse, unless they want to use logo or somehow incorporate the registered Grateful Dead "thing" into it. I have no complaint with anything I've heard and am not displeased to see the songs exist outside our own interpretations of them. The reggae album gives genuine pleasure. Amazing to hear Wharf Rat in that style, and it works convincingly.Whomever may be marketing the old boy's image in a promiscuous fashion, the obvious distastefulness of the activity won't detract from Jerry's accomplishments. I assume they have a legal right to do so and concern myself only with matters I do have some say over. Not much, you may be certain.I try to create a forum, with my web page, where those who feel a need for some kind of "source" communication can gather and voice their concerns with the assurance that someone is listening and will respond. I answer all my mail, even if only a line or two in response. No boiler plate. Today I've been selecting letters that call for longer replies, feeling in the mood to expand. The letters and replies will all be printed in the next mailbag. I find that I formulate my own ideas best in the correspondence mode. Don't know how long I can hold to this pace, but for now the reaction is such that I continue to be well motivated. I won't say "you should see some of those letters" because you can see them. They're all archived on the web site. I don't know how I'll manage if and when the world at large gets wind of DeadNet and wants to join in the exchange. I've told my readers "for now the Archive is playing the clubs" and I'll decide how (and if) to respond to larger volume when the time comes.Thanks for the kind words about my performing career. I think that phase of my life may be over. Be 55 next month and feel that my remaining energies are best spent writing. I could probably make a killing going out and doing my songs in the vacuum left by the Dead, but making that killing would possibly kill me as well - not the performing so much as the short sleep and airline connections. And, not incidentally, I have a seven year old daughter who is not going to have an absentee father if I can help it. Been there. Done that.I think I remember the Fillmore East show of which you speak. 2/13/70. Opening the stage door, after all night music, to unexpected bright morning light with an inch of new snow on the ground. Exhilirating and unforgettable. The perfect instant.Or was that another night of the run? Wrote Stella Blue at the Chelsea Hotel during that stay.Why, you ask, are people discovering the Grateful Dead now? To be blunt, nothing succeeds like death in the entertainment business. So what else is new?Sorry I can't tell you more in the way of reactions to the "mainstreaming of the Dead" but I don't watch tv or read newspapers (other than to glance at headlines) and there isn't much of that sort of thing in sight locally. I'm not playing innocent, I've heard a thing or two to curl the lip, but there are enough things to really worry about around here without getting concerned with who might be making a few kopecks from Garcia's beard clippings. I'm more concerned with AOL's sudden decision to drop their promised adoption of Netscape in favor of MicroSoft's browser. I fear this portends a monopoly presence on the internet, and increasing pressure to clean up the net for middle American sensibilities. Government pressure can be brought to bear, and will be, directly on AOL - and they must submit, there's too much at stake. Billions of dollars in advertising fees. Sanctions. And, as John Barlow has pointed out, the internet is too big, too international, to control, even in the interests of the American right wing. Enforcement must needs be ruthless to frighten those who cannot be directly controlled into feeling they're being watched. But I rave.I did see something today that gave me pause. A bumper sticker on the car in front of me. A p[icture of Jerry's hand with the missing finger. I felt disturbed by the unconsciously provided intimacy of seeing the hand I've shaken hundreds of times displayed in this fashion. But then I did a little mental shift and realized it was just a tribute from the nice looking young folks in the car, and then the light changed.rhSubj: Fire On The MountainDate: May 19 1996 11:24 PM EDTFrom: tigerose@erols.com (Richard & Cheryl DeBois)Dear Robert,The story begins a long time ago. We are very good friends with CyrilNeville and we have been encouraging him and The Neville Brothers to do aDead song. Finally, last Spring Cyril asked us to come up with a few Deadsongs that he can choose from. We had several ideas and gave him some liveversions to listen to. When Jerry died last year it was the same day thatthe Neville Brothers were to play at Wolftrap in Virginia. They weretraveling on the bus all day and had not heard the bad news until we toldthem. Needless to say the show that night was very emotional for all. Thatnight Cyril was now ready to do that song. He chose Fire on the Mountainand asked us if we could come up with the words. At the time we went onlineand got lyrics/Grateful Dead somewhere and downloaded them. We then handwrote these words and sent them to Cyril who was still on tour.When I went online tonight and read your page (which I am a huge fan ofand read religiously) and I saw your comments on the word that was changedon the new album I ran to my file to check what I had sent him. Sureenough, the lyrics were wrong! I did not have your book "Box Of Rain" then(I do now) or I would have given him all the correct words. I feel reallyterrible about this. Will you ever forgive me? I gave him these lyricsbecause he had nobody else to turn to. We were the only "Deadheads" that heknew.The live versions that I heard last month in New Orleans were certainlykick-ass. Lets hope there will be many other performers trying to reach outand present your songs as well. Keep up the good work with your web siteand once again forgive me for misrepresenting your lyrics. From now on Iwill consult you for all correct lyrics.Peace,Richard DeBoisRichardNo harm done, especially seeing that you got him to do the song! As I hope I made clear, it was a change only an author would notice. I wouldn't go so far as to say it bugged me. So rest easy. And don't consult me! Buy the damned book or take it off my lyrics on the net.rh5/29 ps: met Cyril at Laguna Seca and we had a good rap. Fine man, fine musician.Subj: The whole enchiladaDate: May 21 1996 2:24 AM EDTFrom: kaudio@well.com (Kyle Holbrook)rh,All the responses to "the dilemna" in the mailbag took me two hours toread last night. I've been touched by the Dead experience in so manyways I couldn't even list an outline. Two thoughts I have been sharingwith my immediate friends and family.I feel so lucky , and indeed enriched that the music I thoroughly lovedand investigated from all angles( I was a taper for many years(82-89))had brought together so many people that I have come to respect and love.I have felt spirituality, community, love, joy, musicality, even kinetictension from the stage, so many ways and through so many mediums on somany different nights. I know , that no matter what could happen to allof you who created, initiated, the Dead Monster, that all the people andspirits that formed all the aforementioned atmospheres will carry on,and the love will never be lost.(2) As someone mentioned in the mailbag, this stage is just the state ofmetamorphose that you all are in, NOW, it will be as it will be, so tospeak. As you have written, there was never a master plan to begin with,it just happened. So the next step(s) will happen too. That's not tosay that you shouldn't become the master of the communication between theorganization and the community. I think it's great. As I said, theenergy from all us heads out here, honing in on you guys over there, andwriting their true to heart opinions is uplifting.I thank the great spirits often for my lifetime of learning andadventures relating to the Dead. Iused the energy to focus on my studiesin college, and on bettering myself since.Too much hot air here. better go and give someone else some space. I'mnew to the net, but I'm using the well as my server as I travel often,and wanted to take advantage of their 269 local access numbers.kyle holbrookKyle,wow, you send some late night mail! I'm just closing down and ready to crawl off to bed after a long day of webbing it. Thanks for the good thoughts. Yes, the community is the beginning, middle, and end of it. And yes, evolution doesn't give a damn about what direction we want to take things at this point. There are points you can influence, and points you can't.For example, I can't keep my eyes open much longer.rhSubj: Hey Now!Date: May 21 1996 1:49 AM EDTFrom: freud@mcs.com (Doug Freud)Robert:It is a honor and a privilege to read your thoughts through the Deadnet website. I have been a "family" member since 1989 when I saw my first show atthe Uptown theater in Chicago. Although only in High School, I knew rightaway that the Grateful Dead was something special. Over the years the bandand the music guided my own long strange trip. It is for this reason that Iam disturbed by the possibility of this coming to an end.We all know that Jerry is not available, but somehow the trip should not endat this point. There is too much talent and too much heart within thecommunity. Please do not let the organization die. Although I did not knowhim personally, I think Jerry would have wanted this community to continue./freudps. I want to thank you personally for the music. Many Deadheads do notrealize that you are the voice of the Dead. Jerry was a huge talent, butyour contributions to the community can never be measured.pps. I remember reading in an old interview that you and Jerry did indeedread Sigmund Freud. Is this true? If so what did you read and how did itinfluence you? (With a name like Freud they only let you major inPsychology) After all, I am from the family that brought you neurosis.email: freud@net-work.comURL: WWW.Net-work.comDoug,just realized, as I'm stuffing the mailbag, that I never answered your letter, so I'll just take a moment and do it here.Yes, I read Freud from time to time. I enjoy his massive mind - a true Victorian era completist and mad innovator. He created the western subconscious and tied myth to psychology in an amazing way. Is it true? Pah! Who cares! His work is insightful, titilating, and altogether brilliant. He made us think in brand new ways and, if nothing else, uncovered the simmering sexual hypocrisy rampant in the civilization of his time.Did Jerry read him? Dunno. He knew damned near everything by osmosis.rhDate: May 22 1996 3:08 PM EDTFrom: jeff.stampes@Xilinx.COM (Jeff Stampes)I finally took the time to visit your website and digest someof what has gathered there. I read the mailbags, your journalentries, and tried to digest what I'm seeing. There are sometrends that are rather disturbing to me, so I'll waste a fewminutes of your time with them.1) I note in the e-mails an absence of gratitude. You gaveso much of yourself to the entity we grew to know as theGrateful Dead, and now that they have passed into ourmemories, and seek new identity, you are still giving.Thank you!! (and Thank you for the Nov '91 show you didat the Ritz in NYC with T.C....still a highlight for me!)2) Everyone seems to be looking for ways to keep the Dead going.Have we forgotten everything we've learned over the years?I wanted to say "what Jerry taught us", but the truth is thatwe taught ourselves. Phil may believe that we aren't theGrateful Dead anymore, but I'll take issue with him. More thanever, we are the Dead. The musicians aren't anymore, so it'sus now. We have the music, and there's more showing up all thetime (Dick's Picks, Vault tapes, etc). What would happen if weall stopped looking? We have the music, we have the love, wehave the friendship and community....we can gather at otherconcerts, Family gatherings, or over candlelight and a bottleof wine on a stormy night. What is everyone looking for?I'm scared everyone is losing what we have to look forsomething else.Thank you again for everything...we wouldn't have gotten herewithout you, and the information you provide us with helps ussee the future unfolding.In Peace,Jeff StampesJeff,first let me thank you for your welcome appreciation of my efforts. I've come to realize, in the face of possibly losing it, that I value the community in the same manner I value my life because it IS my life. I didn't know that before. I'm learning. If I abandoned it, my muse would abandon me. Jerry and I talked that over, way back when, and both agreed it was so. Pretty heavy statement - but what is life worth without commitment? And what makes more sense than to continue to commit to what you've spent most of your life trying to help build? It's a ship worth sailing or sinking with.Second: are you reading the same mailbags I am? They appear, to me, to be busting at the seams with gratitude - almost embarrassingly so! I feel a bit of a monomaniac posting so much self- agrandizing stuff, but that's what I get and there it is. In and amongst the warm regards is a lot of pertinent stuff, a lot of reality checking, a lot of information. I've got no problem with those who applaud my efforts but caution that evolution must take it toll, despite my wishes. If it all falls down and goes under, at least I won't be left to wonder what else I could have done. I might wish I'd tried other methods, but who's to know that before the fact?By the way, Phil said that you people ARE the Grateful Dead now. You got that just backwards. And I don't think people are so unable to see what's what as to demand that the remains of the band reform as the Grateful Dead. I don't get that hit at all. There is a certain expression of sorrow, but that's only natural. Much more prominent is the sense that we can keep it together as a community so long as the dialogue can be kept going. I like your image of "family gatherings over candlelight and a bottle of wine on a stormy night." Reminds me of Dylan's line "Come in, she said, I'll give you shelter from the storm."So, Jeff, welcome to the dialogue. Pull up a fire and a glass of wine and let's rap.rhSubj: Journal & GDCMay 22 1996 9:21 AM EDTFrom: jp@deadhead.geac.co.uk (Jeremy Poynton)Robert,Hi. Redeye on your back again ;-> God to see the latest journal - guesskeeping a journal makes you a journalist now ? Great to see the draft of'Ripple' ; I kept playing around with your corrections .. came up with"If my tongue did glow ... " - now why didn't that make the final version ?Re Phil's comment that 'we' (whoever 'we' are) are now the Grateful Dead;I think many would agree - in fact, it's a sentiment that seems to havecome to the fore since Jerry's death. How to proceed ? In the UK I forsure don't know - the deadhead community as such is small, and in UK termsfar flung. Also, I am not sure that we are not at a different cultural stageto the States - here it feels like the end stage of the decline and fallof the British Empire. All is in a state of decay, and the current governmenthas betrayed our fragile democracy, which, with no written constitutionor Bill of Rights, has always relied on a tacit acceptance of democracy bythe executive. All the individual can do is to foster what is good aroundthem.Over the pond, however, I think it is different; you are not yet in thestate we are in - maybe on the edge of the fall, but a little way off it yet;certainly more extreme, in the manifestations of craziness, both institutionaland personal (but then we Brits have never been extreme anyway - wouldn't dochaps, would it?), but perhaps this is where your chance lies - for allthe white supremacists, survivalists, Montana-based crazies, there seems tobe an active counter-balance, embodied in one of it's most visible formsin the Dead, then, now and in the future. I do however think your idea ofa "Grateful Dead Central" a great one ... whatever happens from here on in,a focus of some sort is needed - this could provide it.I'm reminded of the old 'Dulce et decorum est ..." quote, "Ask not whatyour country can do for you, but what you can do for it" - maybe we canturn it on it's head and say "Ask not what the Dead can do for you, butwhat you can do for the Dead" ?The journal's great - am printing it off for the netless deadheads of Bristol."Off the wall" was one comment I got on it. Haven't got a clue what was meant.Over & outjp(Jeremy Poynton jp@deadhead.geac.co.uk)Redeye,hold in there, I'll be over to sort you lot out in a month. There's three major economic problems with merrie olde, that, if corrected, would herald a new age - the rest of economic reform would follow without fail. I speak of the prohibitive price of petrol, ale and ciggies. What can you say about the morale of a country where you can't drive, smoke or drink without facing financial ruin?rhDate: May 23 1996 4:46 PM EDTFrom: libjrm@emory.edu (John Marsh)Greetings, Robert!Paid my first visit to your website today and can only echo thesentiments of so many others - *thank you* for this superb resource, andthe opportunity to communicate with you. I'll do my best to sidestep thetemptation of raving like a sycophant :) , and simply say that I willalways be in debt to you and the rest of the GD for the joy and wonderyou've brought me through the years. Thanks again.One thing I wanted to share with you: last weekend in Atlanta there was anexcellent illustration of the meme I've seen floating around the 'netlately, (I've heard it credited to both you and Phil, not sure of the truesource) that says, in essence, that we (the deadheads) *are* the GratefulDead now. There was a gathering called the "Jerry Jam" at which dozens ofAtlanta's musicians paid musical tribute to JG & Co. It was a trulyinspiring event, marked by performances of many of your & JG'scompositions as well as original music by the bands involved, one of whichI was honored to play with. The hall was sold out (1150+ tickets) and weraised over $5000 for a local group whose focus is cleaning up theChatahoochee River, one of the most polluted rivers in the U.S. (and theprime source of water for the city of Atlanta). The organizers areplanning on turning it into an annual event. I know that environmentalconcerns were a large part of the GD's charitable activities, and Ithought you'd appreciate hearing about this.So, though the GD as we knew and loved it is no more, the spirit lives onin those whose lives were enriched by it, and wonderful things are stillhappening because of its enduring legacy.All good things-John MarshAtlanta, GAJohn,regardless of who said it first, it's the truth and bears repeating. Sounds like a fine event. Keep it up.rhMay 23 1996 1:18 PM EDTFrom: jeff.stampes@Xilinx.COM (Jeff Stampes)Robert,I certainly appreciate you taking the time to respond to my letter...the insight you can provide from another angle is refreshing to me, andreinforces a lot of the ideas I have had for a long time.During the last years of the band as we knew it, as a touring,viable entity, I started to have some rumblings in my subconcious. AsI got more and more involved in the Net and world of rec.music.gdead,those rumblings became virtual tremors, and started to shake thefoundation I thought I had so carefully built upon.My thoughts were along the vein of, "God help us all if it's Jerryand the band that keeps us together." What would become of a communitywith bonds that weak? And there were times (times we may wish we neversaw) that watching the goings-on surrounding a show gave me fears thatmaybe the bonds were that weak. It was r.m.gd that gave me back someof my faith. As I watched the dialogue and debates get tainted withsenseless bickering and irritating noise, it struck me that it wasexactly the same as the 'scene'. We were and are a true community. Westarted with the common bond of the music, which brought us therethe first time. After that, we struck off and discovered our tieswith each other, independent of the band or the music. We have ourheros, and we have our louts...they're both part of the package deal.You can't have the good without the bad, and I don't think I would wantto. Growing as a community after you've lost a leader can be oneof the most satisfying challanges for people, if they accept the jobin front of them, and move to it.I guess this all feeds the discomfort I get from people who aren'tletting the world change. They think they need a concert, or afestival, or some other external event to get together with theircommunity. These people will run off to LSD, or the Furthur Fest,and want something they may not find. Their inability to find itwon't be because it's not there for them, it would be because they'relooking for the wrong thing. Their loss. However, the effects thatfeeling of loss they experience can have on everyone else may impactour ability to grow together.I realize I'm rambling, so I'll go pour more wine, and let thewhirling thoughts settle down a little.In Peace,Jeff StampesAgain, brother, AMEN! rhSubj: FWD: cussing report...Date: May 23 1996 8:54 AM EDTFrom: hippie@iglou.com (Michrel L. Standefer)Just thought you may find this interesting...>Since several governments seem ready to invest quite a bit of money incensorship, I thought it might be worthwhile to investigate what theirreturn has been in hard numbers. I made use of the research service athttp://www.dejanews.com/ in order to examine the total usage of six wordson Usenet for each of the past 12 months. The result, as I shall presentin detail below, is that beginning with the month preceding passage ofthe CDA, usage of vulgarity, formerly stable, quite literally doubled.>Measurements were from the first day to the last day of each monthusing the query filter, followed by counts of the matches with the words"fuck", "sleep", "shit", "eat", "piss", and "drink". The control terms"sleep", "eat", and "drink" were included to avoid the criticism thatnon-technical conversation might simply be increasing; they do, in fact,increase approximately 20%. Only bodily functions were used to ensurethat religious messages, for instance, would not be mis-scored.Date Total Fuck Sleep Shit Eat Piss Drink5/95 118173 272 565 584 962 114 4446/95 143943 302 743 759 1152 143 6137/95 105689 269 549 585 808 124 4958/95 154476 342 770 813 1213 175 6439/95 120941 191 889 674 872 139 48310/95 105861 348 489 676 748 116 39711/95 179479 441 652 841 1025 170 50412/95 176266 524 725 801 1058 171 5981/96 260417 1524 1612 2226 2281 380 13432/96 268698 1742 1492 2350 2407 425 1235*3/96 213431 1401 1184 1800 1922 370 11064/96 356164 2311 2073 3061 3282 661 1743*3/96 is a sum of "old" and "current" database entries;data from 4/96 is exclusively in the "current" database.The numbers given here are in terms of posts per thousandindexed with the word indicated:Date Fuck Shit Piss Sleep Eat Drink5/95 2.3 4.9 1.0 4.8 8.1 3.86/95 2.1 5.3 1.0 5.2 8.0 4.37/95 2.5 5.5 1.2 5.2 7.6 4.78/95 2.2 5.3 1.1 5.0 7.9 4.29/95 1.6 5.6 1.1 7.4 7.2 4.010/95 3.3 6.4 1.1 4.6 7.0 3.811/95 2.5 4.7 0.9 3.6 5.7 2.812/95 3.0 4.5 1.0 4.1 6.0 3.41/96 5.9 8.6 1.5 6.2 8.8 5.22/96 6.5 8.7 1.6 5.6 9.0 4.63/96 6.6 8.4 1.7 5.5 9.0 5.14/96 6.5 8.6 1.9 5.8 9.2 4.8Relative to the 5/95 to 12/95 baseline frequency, usage ofthe terms "fuck", "shit" and "piss" (averaged by item) was 76%higher in January, 88% higher in February, 92% higher in March,and 97% higher in April. The upward trend of these numberssuggests that the frequency of vulgarity has not yet peaked.The CDA was passed, after much acrimonious debate,on February 1, 1996. Similar laws have been underconsideration elsewhere, so it is difficult to say whethernon-U.S. posters would be expected to flatten the increase.I have not yet devised a way to reliably measure only U.S.posters for this period.----tiffany lee brown * assistant editor, fringe ware reviewstyle editrix, chicane * editor, TAZmusiquesnailmail c/o Bohobo Press * 3439 NE Sandy Blvd. #272Portland, Oregon * 97232 * USA * voice 503/321-5061'I demand tea, cake, and the finest wines available to humanity!'- WithnailSubj: Answer to the question unasked.Date: May 23 1996 9:47 PM EDTFrom: art@safari.net (Art Granoff)Forever,Thanks 4 the loveThanks 4 the diversityThanks 4 showin us what we can be.Forever + Now, thanks for new Zero tunes.XX ArtArt,well, since you put it that way all I can say is 'welcome to it!'rhSubj: Giants HarpDate: May 23 1996 10:53 PM EDTFrom: njrj@bridge.net (Nancy/Rustin Oko)Robert,I am half way thru ch. 8 of the Giants Harp. It is the best one yet, the characters are coming to life, the town is becoming three dimentional. i can walk through its streets. thank you.--------peacerustinThanks, Nancy.Some complain that they can't keep all the characters straight so I'm going to post a name & attribute list very soon. Suppose it might be difficult telling Ro from Lo or Ist from Isa for those who only get to check in every ten days or so. My dad (who edited the first draft 10 years ago) suggested I change most of the names for that reason, but how could I do that? Those are their names!rhDate: Fri, 24 May 1996 12:35:50 -0700 (PDT)From: Barbara Saunders <saunders@well.com>rh-First, what you're doing with this page blows my mind!Second, big thanks for, well, "everything."I want to respond specifically to your journal posting of 5/10. I lovedwhat you had to say about the Grateful Dead as a symbol, identity, andidea. The events of 1986 made me conscious of the reality that "the scene",as I knew it, would end one day. But, I've realized that I was and stillam totally unprepared for a world without the Grateful Dead as "idea","energy", "morphic field".I hope you're successful in keeping the name alive with the inner circle.To me, "Grateful Dead" is larger than music/musical events. I can'tdefine it, but I know it when I see it, as they say. The words, music,and people changed my life forever; I want to keep playing with "You all"at the lead! The "power accrued to the name", as you put it, is "goodspirit power," I think.BarbaraHi Barbara,long time no see. Manage to get your web page up yet? I'm going to Laguna Seca Sunday to see how the wind blows, catch Mickey's premiere. Fingers crossed. It should tell a lot about how realistic my hopes are. Nice to hear from you.rhSubj: When your head gets twisted & your mind goes numbDate: May 24 1996 7:23 PM EDTFrom: rowjimmy@ix.netcom.com (William Richard DeHaven)I've been reading your webpage faithfully and i'm not what you wouldcall an avid reader. So thanks for helping me rediscover the joys ofthe written word. I really think this net thing will keep us togetheras long as we have access to people like yourself. We might just haveone more ring in that bell, so please keep up the work but don't killyourself as mom would say.Thanks for so many good roads.William,you think so? That's the plan, but you never know. A little of this, a little of that. Crazy??? Been there, done that.rhDate: May 23 1996 4:51 PM EDTFrom: scm@harvee.billerica.ma.us(Susan Mudgett aka little gatorSince I gave you the Gatorful Dead collection (I wonder how much if anyof it you remember. Does cartoon gators mangling Dead lyrics withhorribly bad spelling remind you of anything?) there has only been onemore, the one recording your Somerville concert. I apologise thatBoston of all places is full of ignoramuses who didn't get your MTAjoke but it's called "The T" now anyway. But what an amazing eveningthat was, even if I hadn't been able to meet you after it, andespecially since I did.The Gatorful Dead collection stopped at 7. I think you got the 5 DeadShows and the JGB show, and the last was the one for your concert. Ican snail it to you if you never got it.
*********************************************I've always believed that Julie in "Row Jimmy" was a dog. The firstverse reminds me of my own hounds, so when I took a stray Beagle outof a pound to take to a local Beagle rescue I named her Julie eventhough I was only with her for an hour. I never told them why but asfar as I know her new family still calls her that.My own hounds are named after your songs too, their registered namesanyway. "My Pal" is my unoffical kennel name. Molly is a Bluetick andthere's a strong tradition in that breed to use the word "blue" intheir names, plus I have a close friend named STella, so she's GrandChampion "PR" My Pal STella Blue. Sara is My Pal Lady With a Fan.She's a Black and Tan Coonhound and had been abandoned at a vet withher puppies. It was love at first sight for her and me as it was forMolly and my husband, but she was so depressed I feared she'd be nofun, plus she couldn't go till the pups were weaned, so I had lots oftime for second thoughts. Agonising over this, I popped in the tapein the car stereo and heard that song. In this case the message wasclearly that tough choices happen and it was up to me to decide.Turns out she's the silliest, most playful dog I've ever had, and yes,sometimes she fairly leaps at me.They post on rec.pets.dogs.misc in WOOFCHAT as Molly the Speckled andSaranWrap Sara.Hey! what happened to those cool little icons you displayed from otherpages? Did you stop? Is this my punishment for procrastinating onsending you the web addresses where you can find art I've done?http://www.saturn.net/~esj/ (mr gator, see "Susan's Art Gallery" to seewhat my gators are up to lately, and I did the sun icons too. I justwish he'd included the moon icons, I like them better.)http://www.saturn.net/~esj/fnordy.html (this is Fnordy's page. Fnordyis a small blue plushie being who posts mostly on alt.sex.bondage, andhas a cult following, including his worldwide fan club, The Maniacsfor Fnord. Fnordikins is a cheerful masochist who believes thateveryone is *crazy* about him. Fnord's writing offends the easilyoffended, being to graphic for some and too silly for others. I didthe artwork for his page too.)Then there's a friend of mine whose page includes the gatorillustration "The Deth of Tooring" which you may have seen.And the dog page where my hounds' pictures are.Please keep this personal, since if I don't ask for privacy I'll be sobusy censoring myself I won't say anything.susan> Susan,>> I'm real mad at you. That is exactly the kind of utterly whacked out letter I> love to put in the mailbag. But NO! What are most of the best ones marked> personal? rhI think you meant "why", not "what." And it's stage fright, though whyit's any more scaring than posting on newsgroups I can't figure out. But itis."Utterly whacked out"?!?!?! A friend of mine calls my stream ofconsciousness emails lyrical. But then, this friend is endearinglyuncritical of anything I do.Ok, put anything of mine in your mailbag, including that letter,unless I mark something personal.*gulp* *quiver*is that arfarf@snot character for real or am I not supposed to ask? Iwas once one of the authors of a mythical caller on a loacl bbs, whodeveloped a real name to go with his handle(which was The SkullBearer), and a cast of characters in his pathetic life.> No, I didn't see the Somerville gators. Gimme. Send to office, Box> 1073 San Rafael 94915.I sent it there once but I'll try again. Maybe you should just send meyour personal home address, I promise I won't share it with more thana few dozen of my closest pals.You can stop laughing now.>There's a video tape of that show which I've> given permission to let circulate. rh*shriek* How do I get one?Susan,I did get the Somerville gators, now I remember -or am I remembering the original which I think you showed me at the gig? All confused, it was at the end of a tour, but it was an honor to meet you. I think your takes on Grateful Dead audiences, kind, loving, caustic and altogether exact, just so and not otherwise, were the cream of the cartoon crop.M.Dire Wolf & the China Cat Sunflower series that ran in Relix were also excellent, but your stuff was from another dimension only gators, you and perhaps Emily Dickenson know about. Consider this a fan letter.rhp.s. Don't know where you can get the Somerville video tape just yet. A couple of the songs from that night made the cut for my "Box of Rain" album. Got no complaints about that show; it'll do to represent me. I'll begin machinations to make it available through the newsgroup traders. In fact this letter may be all I need to do. It's OK, guys. Copy away. No sales, please.Thanks for permission to add your letter. to the mailbag. Haven't seen Louise for a couple of days so haven't had a chance to ask her if she's real or not.X-From: scm@harvee.billerica.ma.us(Susan Mudgett aka little gator)After I slept some more and woke up, I saw many more ways I could've woven the Jerry as Rubin/Reuben images togther, but this is what I posted at 5 am or so last August 10, when I woke up from this dream. I was still half asleep when I wrote it. That song has haunted me since I first woke up to it on my alarm radio many years ago. Your version of it at Somerville was chilling.> August 10, 1995> This is the dream that woke me a little while ago:> There was a Dead concert somewhere. Jerry was playing.. Space I guess,> though I couldn't hear it, I could only see as if I was a camera on> the ceiling. He played for two days and nights without a break.> Every few hours security tried to clear the arena, only to meet> thousands of Deadhead gators shrieking in unison, "But the concert> isn't *over* yet!" The rest of the band had wandered offstage or> curled up behind the drums to sleep.>> Just before I woke, Jerry crashed facedown on the stage. Maybe he died> then, I couldn't tell. But as I woke, though the rest of him wasn't> moving, one hand was still working the strings, not of a guitar, but a> painted mandolin, inlaid with a pretty face in jade.>> And his hair hung gently down.Date: May 25 1996 7:11 PM EDTFrom: wmulti@well.com (Anne Herbert)beats and beauty and bountiful time:GRACEFUL TURTLES HEAL THIS WORLDSo I saw this slide show about sea turtles. Started out with a grown mom seaturtle sitting on the beach. Looked very awful, lurching to one side,flippers dangling oddly, asymmetically at each side.Few slide later she's swimming, or a sea turtle just like her. Shell justthe right shape for the water, flippers are flippers of power.Almost all the women I know well enough to know how they feel about theirbody feel they have something very wrong with their body. Odd danglyawkwardness, wrong shape, wrong size.We were born to swim in a sea of connectedness. Everything is connected andwe were born with different flippers to glide through and love differentconnections.Women like me, we were born in sneer land. Connections assumed non-existentuntil proved. Ideas have to pass the test of having verbal acid throw onthem to be taken seriously.Our flippers made for water, thick connections, look odd in air and flappingwhere there's not enough to flap in.Some people make places where it's easier to be the graceful turtles wewere born to be.All this talk about women's beauty and so much of it means get small andshallow, flat, thin.When you are in the connections you were born in, you are beautiful for realand the right shape and the world around you supports you because you loveand know it well.Some people together make places where more of the connections we feel aresafe to feel, easy to see and to live. And we swim and we are beautiful.Anne HerbertSubj: 5.10.96 journalDate: May 26 1996 10:39 PM EDTFrom: lafemina@dmv.com (Jim LaFemina)Robert,Wow. I stumbled onto your web page via Yahoo! It's great to hear a voicebehind the words I've been listening to for the last fifteen years. I,too, am a writer albeit yet undiscovered, and was merely seeking anaddress to drop you a short note to ask your permission that I may use ashort passage from Althea on the introduction page of my latest work"The Color of Sox in Tennessee Sunlight". It is a fictional journal of ayoung Union soldier struggling with the living with the dying of thewar. There is a hint of early baseball (Sox) history, and I wanted touse, as an opening,"There are things you can replace,And others you cannot,The time has come to weigh those things,This space is getting hot..."Then I found your journal, then the mailbags. I had to bookmark, or Iwould never get to sleep. As for Plan 9, or was it A?, I'm doing fine.I hope the Next Big Thing announces itself soon, but I must say that forevery single deadhead (myself included) temporarily lost in(cyber)space, there are countless scores of men, women, and childrenfacing far more deadly ills. I carry with me the community of theGrateful Dead. I know I am better for having been along for even part ofthe ride (so far). Now I have a wife, a son, and a daughter who need me.At some point, we're all Jerry. The retreads fit OK, and I have indeedprayed for better weather.Where do I send the $10 to? I need a new Harley. Oh, yes, andtell Maureen the cover of Live85 was really, really great. Was green heridea too? Please advise on the use of the lyrics. I think they fit thestory very well. Peace.Jimlafemina@dmv.comJim,1. the next step is here. Read Journal 5/27.2. address is on Kid's Street Theater page. Just click the button.3. Green not her idea. Shock.4. Permission to use lyric granted.Thanks for digging the page. Yahoo? Didn't know I was listed.rhSubj: What's left to do...Date: May 27 1996 4:32 PM EDTFrom: ssol@well.com (Steven Solomon)RH,>I believe we're in a crisis -and that the only way out of the crisis is to>make broad moves quick, properly >directed in terms of what we need to>exist in the future. I am neither alone in believing this nor do I>>represent a convinced majority. But I'm pretty sure I'm right or I>wouldn't be shooting my mouth off.Well put, per usual. We have, indeed, entered a very dynamic environment,one that will require innovation, purposeful evolution, personalresponsibilty... or it will kill us as a nacient culture.Where are we going? Where ever it is, if we are successful in improvisingour own evolution, we'll go together.Let's go together, and aim for the heart. Heart will provide the worthy andplenty broad target in our latest adventure... and, if we find broadconcensus to move together, dance together on this ride, we can continue toshare that good heart.But, what are the practical steps to be undertaken? This is my particularcuriousity and bent of mind. I'm a guy who's very interested in how"things", systems of humans, technology and culture, work. I am a deadheadand a professional manager, an organizational generalist, a Leader forHire... to paraphrase the Tao, when the wise leader leads, the team barelyknows he exists. Yes, most everything I needed to know about "management",I learned at a Dead concert. A few among these lessons: play nice with theother kids (you will be graded on this later), explore risk (the bestthings don't happen from a plan), and know that loss is inevitable, profitis not (play for the long-term and keep your personal values straight).OK... so if I'm so smart, what broad moves do I suggest? Thought I'd never ask.1: Continue to refine the Info Tech (web pages, hotlines) and weave theweb. Relentlessly use and invest in this infrastructure and thus, the humanresource. The human resource is both the life-blood and bequethment of allthose years on the road, years by candle-light writing, strumming, humming,imagining... investing in the telecom can keep this resource flowing andperhaps allow it to flower in unexpected ways. It also has the side benefitof providing a library and growing history of both the past andcurrent/future evolutions.2: Not every deadhead has a computer; hmmmm. Well, there's still "real"life. As the scene evolves into the new phase, and grows back down to itsroots in the streets and the clubs, a new layer of intelligence willemerge. The trick will be to keep it "wired". Here, again, the Info Techwill be helpful. So will the tape trading, newsletters, and word of mouth.What, if anything, can/should the Home Office being doing to enable thisnecessary evolution, is a question for further study. Research and planningon this matter should be front-burnered.3: Establish ongoing, reliable communications via commerce. How about aVault Release of the Month? Hell, CDs are cheap enuf to press that youcould sign up a hundred thousand heads for a Jam o' the Month, 20-30 minuteCD (and a year's end "Best Of" triple disc), and make it work as abusiness. More importantly, each issue could come with an info-packed setof notes: news, philosophical noodlings, story telling. Sounds like ashit-load more work for you and Dick, tho.4: Move ahead with the Terrapin Station projects; Dead approved/managedsites (sometimes sarcastically refered to as Jerrywood) to host tribalgatherings. Without the arenas to host the scene per se (not necessarily abad thing, I think), we've gotta have somewhere to periodically hang ourhead-bands. Once again, these "resorts" could embody the themes of hightechnology and human community... and tie back into suggestion #1...Well, that's it- so far. Clearly there's lots more cogitating to be done bya lot of folks... and then we return to the work... with joy... incelebration... blessed to have these magical people in our time on theplanet.Best wishes,Steve SolomonSteve,enjoyed your letter. Many good points. After going to Laguna Seca Sunday, I was surprised and gratified to see the community gathered in force. Less crazed than usual, and that's all for the good. As you know, I've put a lot of hope in Mickey Hart's musical dedication and my expectations were more than met, ragtag as the premiere of the band was technically. But that's just a matter of patching and electronics. Once the kinks are ironed out, I feel the sky's the limit for the Mystery Box configuration. It showed heart and rhythm. I'm now ready to relax a bit and trust that new, live music is the ultimate answer to what will keep the scene ticking. The web is only a stop-gap and information place. With a little less of a feeling of crisis, I, for one, will be able to put more attention on what it can do as a vehicle of outrageousness, rather than as a mutual counseling facility for those who feel the shock of endangered roots. The healing will come via the music, not the internet. All I got is a big box of bandaids. What we need is a band. I believe we've got one. God, does it feel good!rhDate: May 29 1996 5:26 PM EDTFrom: steve_biederman@MENTORG.COM (Steve Biederman)rh,Your words, which came to me through Mystery Box at Laguna Seca, were so comforting to my soul and so much what I needed to hear.The message in the sequence of "Down the Road" / "The Next Step" /"Full Steam Ahead" was pretty unmistakable.Coming from you, it really meant a lot and I'm getting choked up justthinking about it, so ... thanks.Didn't see you wandering around Seca, though some folks said they did. Hope you had the same experience I did: when Jerry left us, one of the really big, scary, deeeeeply sad thoughts was "I'll never be THERE again."Laguna Seca was THERE, and it sure was nice to be there.Peace and growth to you.I'm off for a vacation to London and Amsterdam!steveSteve,yeah, I was there. I wandered around and bought a hat. I never know if people recognize me or not. Deadheads are ultra-cool that way - they know I like my privacy and let me have it, so I can look, rather than have the feeling of being looked at. I was so happy that day. I was the guy in the hat at stage left with the big grin. Glad you were there. Glad you loved it too.rh
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