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The Giant's Harp
by Robert Hunter
Chapter One
Whispers Of Ist
"Listen son. Hear her?"
Ro clenched Elmo's wrist as they leaned over the ledge of the Giant's Harp,
looking through layers of cloud and mirage at the faraway beach below.
"Let go, Father! I'll be careful. Is that her down
on the rock?" Ro doubted his son really saw the Schula through the
reflective layers of hot and cool air where the desert approached the sea,
but there was something down there that looked like a woman. He produced
a spyglass from the fold of his cloak.
"If something is solid, a telescope brings it closer
but mirages disappear . . . well, well - she's there, right enough! Have
a look." Ro grasped the child's arm as he handed him the spyglass,
wary of the fenceless step jutting over the abyss.
For the first time ever, Elmo saw the girl clearly. She
looked older than he but not by much. She was singing more beautifully,
to his ears, than ever before in his ten years. And wasn't she looking right
at him? So it seemed. He ventured a wave but it wasn't returned. After gazing
a long while, he said:
"When I'm older I'm going down there."
"When you're older you won't want to."
"Did you ever go?"
"Well..."
"Were there Schulas in those days?"
"More than you could count, son."
"Is she the only one left?"
"No, but there aren't many."
"Where did they come from?"
"All I know is what I've heard from the storyteller.
The way Aeoui would have it, they serve Ist who sowed them from whale's
teeth and sent them to sing for her father, Bran the Giant, after he was
turned into a floating island by Yu."
"Do you believe in Ist?"
"That's not a proper question."
"Lo said you don't believe."
"Depends which side of the bed I drop my shoes."
"Well, I don't believe."
"I'm sure that distresses Ist greatly."
"I believe sometimes. It depends who I'm with. When
I play with Echo we pretend she's Ist. She makes herself believe she's Ist
so hard I believe it too, at least for awhile. It makes her awfully mad
when I stop believing. Sometimes she rolls on the ground and screams until
her father wakes up and tells me to go away. I hate him."
"Mind! Sod's gruff but he's a decent and honest man.
What part do you play in the game of Ist?"
"Sometimes I'm the rat that bites her heel and gets
cursed. Look! The Schula just waved."
"I don't think she can see us all the way up here.
It's more than three furlongs down to the beach."
"Oh she can, she can! Look at her, she's waving!"
"Let's see. Well, well!"
"Is Ist still the boss of the Schulas?"
"If you believe the first part of the story, you
might believe the rest. According to Aeoui, she wears the Schula like an
overcoat when she wants to. Ist is said to take many forms in many places
- sometimes several forms in a single place."
"Like wind?"
"Like water."
"Like clouds?"
"Like sky."
"How big is she?"
"Many sizes, many faces."
"Not Ist, I mean the Schula."
"Small. Bigger than you."
"Echo says Ist comes to Terrapin sometimes. Is she
a Schula then?"
"Not according to the story. When she comes here,
she's a beautiful lady with blazing eyes, very vain and easy to offend."
"Have you seen her?"
"Someone who fits the description. Some vow she was
Ist. I am not among them."
"Will she come again?"
"The woman? Or Ist? Neither, if we're lucky."
"I want to see her. I hope she comes. How can you
tell when she's coming?"
"Oh, things change in strange ways. Winds blow down
chimneys and rattle cookpot lids. Those winds are her ears."
"What are her eyes?"
"Windows are her eyes. She can see you inside your
room if you don't pull your curtain. Even then, she might send a little
whirlwind under your door to part the curtain so she can see what you're
up to."
"So you do believe in her?"
"I'm only telling you what Aeoui says. Stars are
my stock in trade. I happily leave such beliefs to those in need of diversion
and suggest you do the same."
"But if you believe something, why hide it?"
Ro's eyes twinkled at the question. He recognized the
influence of his old friend Lit, Elmo's teacher.
"Your beliefs are your own affair, so long as you
don't pester others with them. It's time we headed home."
"I want to watch the Schula some more, Father. Please!
Can't I just stay here by myself for a little while? I promise to be careful."
Ro considered. More caution would be coddling, the widower
decided, as he'd often warned Henrietta, his late lamented wife.
"You may stay, but mind the angle of the sun. If
you're not home before it sets, beware my wrath!"
Elmo was jubilant. Ro was so cautious he'd felt no hope of a "yes."
Ro walked away, nerves humming: a touch of vertigo, he
realized, a new feature of advancing age. The child had no fear of heights
whatsoever. Nor had he himself, except when gazing through his telescope
on a particularly clear night - when he sometimes felt in danger of tumbling
into the sky.
This touch of vertigo was probably a product of his overconcern
for Elmo, he reasoned. It was the child whom he feared might fall, not himself.
For himself, the astronomer had no concern except as parent to his son who
had become doubly precious following the loss of Henrietta.
"The fearlessness of others is a fearsome thing,"
he muttered.
As soon as Ro left, the Schula sang more clearly. Her
ballads became love ditties as a warm zephyr favored the notes, scooped
them from the beach and carried them up the promontory cliff to the Giant's
Harp, a megalithic monument of marble, ancient beyond known local history.
Elmo clambered higher up the massive steps in order to hear better, ignoring
the deeply etched freezes of deities and battles connecting the scores of
white fluted columns supporting ten cubit square slabs of obsidian, hoisted
in place, it must be, by giants, gods, or machines unknown on earth in remembered
time.
The Giant's Harp was a remnant of Time Before. It bore
other names in other times. "Time Before" was the long, long space
preceding the short, short memories of the illiterate people of Terrapin,
an inbred town bordered on three sides by desert, set on a cliff facing
the sea.
Ro was among the very few citizens of that town who had
traveled beyond its boundaries. He'd made the dangerous trek, in the company
of Lit, across the desert to Nikaba; Lit in search of books, Ro of diagrams,
astronomical charts, discourse and lenses for the telescope he meant to
construct. In Nikaba, Ro learned other names for the Giant's Harp. He kept
them to himself. It was not considered good form in Terrapin to know things.
Elmo splayed himself on the marble lap of the goddess
of architecture, bracing his arms on her T-square and compass to steady
his spyglass. The Shulas's voice resounded through the corridors of the
Giant's Harp, splitting into several voices as the end of one note trailed
into the next. Granite eagles and gargoyles of onyx gazed in rapt attention.
Arcades of marble men and women, supple in the craft of their carving, if
missing an arm, a head or a nose, gave unwavering audience. Elmo could feel
the multitude of statuary crowd slowly around him, the marble lap of the
goddess grown soft and warm, as he stared at the lovely singer below in
growing entrancement.
"Elmo, what are you doing here all by yourself?"
Spell suddenly shattered, he turned in annoyance to find
his playmate, Lo, standing hand in hand with her father, Lit the teacher.
"My father said I could."
"There, see! Elmo gets to do everything. Why can't
I go anywhere alone, Father?"
Lit had seen Ro walking away from the Giant's Harp, by
way of the western terrace, looking a bit ashen. He guessed what had happened
and more or less applauded Ro's decision to let the lad watch out for his
own balance. Lit, himself a widower, realized that he must now, reluctantly,
allow equal privilege to his pretty, pale daughter - or never hear the last
of it.
"What time must you go home, Elmo?"
"Before sunset, Sir."
"Lo can stay and listen to the Schula with you. Be
sure she gets home by twilight!"
"Father! I can take care of myself!"
Lit returned by way of the Hall of Urns: thousands of
niches bearing ashes of generations celebrated in the art of the Giant's
harp but otherwise absent from living memory. Unreadable writing in a forgotten
language recorded the name and deeds of the tenant of each urn.
He lowered himself down the seven western steps, hanging
by his hands from the ledge of each step and dropping to the next, then
crossed the long meadow to the mimosa grove where the path into town began.
Stopping for a pint of cider at the Sign of The Nine Hammers,
Lit found Ro alone at a table.
"Your liberality is contagious," said Lit. "I
let Lo stay with Elmo to listen to the Schula."
"I was up there alone at his age."
"So was I."
"First bachelors, then husbands..."
"Then widowers and now mothers!"
"What have you been teaching my son lately, Lit?"
"A bit of this and that. He's learning to put an
edge to a blade, so he'll have a trade."
"He's been practicing on my razor," Ro patted
his nicked chin. "Does this keenness extend to any other studies? He's
been plying me with religious questions lately ... picks up a lot of nonsense
from Sod's daughter Echo. I don't want to set him against the oddities people
believe around here. He's not discerning enough to hold his tongue around
believers...but I don't want him to swallow it whole either."
"If our gentlefolk knew your true thoughts on the
subject, they'd cross their fingers when you walk by a deal more than they
do."
"I'm polite and mind my own business. I find, unfortunately,
that my astronomical calculations do not square with the notion that the
stars were sewn by the gods on a black cloth carried to the sky by a turtle."
"I daresay. Yet you believe in Ist."
"Believe? Hardly. I acknowledge the cursed fact of
Ist."
"Then, you should have no quarrel with my teaching
of your son. After all, you've taken pains to impress your educational opinions
on me, in great detail, this past half century."
"Indeed. And to you alone, being the possessor of
one of the few functioning minds in this barren end station of the world."
"You slight Gia and Aeoui?"
"Aeoui is a pedant and Gia confesses her own senility.
But no, of course I don't include them. They're my teachers, after all,
and I seem to be able to think, though that's as much inconvenience as blessing
in Terrapin."
"Tell me the truth, my friend, have you any serious
objection to the way I instruct Elmo?"
"No. He can accept or reject your opinions once he's
learned them, although it is startling, sometimes, hearing the parrot of
your voice and ideas around the house. It reminds me of the nights we argued
away our youth."
"First here, and later at Gia's ...when the keeper
kicked us out of the Nine Hammers!"
"Did you see Gia by the Giant's Harp?"
"Yes, we spoke. She keeps watch lately. She won't
say, but I'm sure enough she's looking for signs of Ist."
"Pray it will be a brief visitation."
"Or that she's wrong," Lit said fervently.
"I don't think Gia, of all people, would be wrong
about that."
In a dark, back corner of the tavern, alone, facing the
wall, Lit's dark, sullen brother Eliot drank down his sixth pint of black
beer, commenting on the probable course of their conversation to himself,
though he'd heard none of it. It was all the same to Eliot: "They don't
know what they're talking about."
"Let me see the spyglass, Elmo."
"Leave it alone."
"Come on, let me see!"
"Let go or I'll push you right over the ledge!"
"Try it and Ro will never let you come out by yourself
again!"
The children scrapped over the spyglass, heedless of the
ledge of the Giant's Harp and the yawning abyss of melody and mirage. Elmo
snatched the glass from Lo and ran to the far side of the terrace, she chasing.
As the sun touched the water, both game and music stopped suddenly as though
by command. Time to head home.
The children scaled the seven terraced steps, boosting
one another by shoulder and handhold, then crossed the main hall of the
Giant's Harp without looking to right or to left at the ancient artifacts
which were, after all, just part of nature to them. They jumped down each
of the seven southern steps, landing with a series of hard jars, rather
than simply walking around the corner of the terrace they'd played upon
and strolling downhill. That route would have brought them too close to
Gia, known by all children to be a witch.
In their scuffling, they'd stopped paying attention to
the Schula, whose pre-sunset ballad wasted itself, likewise, on the disenchanted
ears of Gia. The old woman stood like a lightning struck tree, grimly propped
on her cane, staring out to sea. Over a hundred years old, she'd lost track
of her age, Gia was feared, though not hated, by all children and respected
by adults who could remember fearing her, too, when young. Even the great-grandfathers
of the town remembered her as an old woman.
It was said that one of Gia's eyes had been plucked out by Ist, whose beauty
she had supposedly rivaled when young. In truth, the eye still rested in
the socket beneath its tight closed lid. Only when startled would the lid
fly open. The dazed orb would weep for an hour after she shut it.
"One thing I know," said Elmo, as he chased
Lo across the meadow, "I'm not inviting you to my birthday."
"When is it?"
"Soon."
"I'm not inviting you to mine either."
"When aren't you?"
"Midsummer Day."
Nor did he, though she came anyway. The next year he did
invite her, but she didn't come. The next year he had no party, and the
year following, Lit died and Lo went to live with her feeble-minded Uncle
Eliot, on the far side of the village, near the southern gate leading to
the Desert of Bones.
Descent
Lo knelt dreaming over a washtub
full of the filthy rags Eliot called his clothes. Memories of pleasant days,
long gone, eclipsed the thick gray bubbles reflecting her unhappy face in
grotesque; streamed through the tatters of curtain nailed above the cottage
window. Daydreams, almost daring to become visions, suddenly retreated in
panic as the outer bolt was slipped and the door flew open. Eliot lurched
in.
"So, you have no taste for work!" he growled,
catching her half submerged in reverie and squeezing her painfully with
his grimy paws.
"I'm sorry, ouch, please stop! I was just thinking.
. ."
"See what you think of this!" A kick of his
boot sent Lo sprawling across the washtub. She strangled a scream to avoid
more trouble, but a whimper escaped.
"And don't mewl!" He slapped the back of her
head, threw a chunk of dog meat on the table to be boiled for supper, then
stormed out the door to drink away his troubles at the Nine Hammers.
Lo dried her face on her apron and ran her fingers through
her matted hair, feeling the ugly chunk cut by Eliot's shears as punishment
for being caught looking out the window, which she did constantly in his
absence.
She feared to actually step outside. Eliot set traps around
the cottage to make sure no one was prowling about and he had a paranoid's
keen eye for detail. He was unlikely to miss such marks of disobedience
as the imprint of her shoeless foot in the forbidden world outside the door.
Eliot spent all his idle time, hours when the tavern was
closed and no work was offered him, designing and hiding his traps. He changed
them often and showed something like intelligence, if not outright genius,
in their construction. There were sharpened shafts in surrounding bushes,
a spring action noose and a false surface giving way to a nine foot pit
of barbed wire, dogshit and broken glass.
The desert that bordered the South wall of his cottage
presented a blank slate suitable for peopling with Eliot's deepest and least
rational fears. The North side, facing Terrapin, did not. In town were pints
to drink, wells to dig, cesspools to drain, and people to dislike. But from
the desert something seemed to warn.
Eliot out the door, Lo started a fire, filled the cookpot
from the cistern, and threw the high-smelling meat in the cold water with
a handful of salt. Eliot liked lots of salt. No sooner had she hung the
pot over the fire than the heavy iron lid began to rattle. A quick breath
of wind from under the door sent the yellowed curtain dancing. Lo was startled
at the concurrence. Surely the huff of wind wasn't strong enough to rattle
a cast iron cookpot lid?
She settled herself by the window and gazed at the desert
. Was someone coming? No. It was only a mirage that soon dissipated.
Since Eliot's house was isolated, none knew what abuses
he practiced there. Generally disliked, he was tolerated at the Nine Hammers,
so long as he kept to himself, which he did from preference. He paid his
tab regularly and caused no trouble.
"Let the bastard be," was the edict of Dor the
taverner, and let be the bastard was.
Eliot was given leave to sit in a dark corner, tacitly
reserved for him, and left alone to mutter inaudible comments into his ragged
black beard, curses lost in the general noise and cheer of the sole tavern
between the continental ledge and the great desert.
Eliot was tolerated in memory of his brother Lit, whom
he resembled only in greatness of girth. The school master had been a town
favorite, with his gift for reducing complex problems to simple, comical
alternatives. Occam's Razor, he'd called it. Many had sought Lit's savvy
perspective on their troubles. Even the taverner, Dor, used to being the
catchpot of his customers' woes, would turn to Lit to unload his own perplexities.
Other than ancient Gia, no one else had ever been so much
at ease with Ro the astronomer: a gentle soul, of sorrowful countenance
even before the death of his wife. When Lit died, Ro stopped coming to the
tavern, keeping entirely to his telescope and calculations.
All agreed Eliot was a half-wit, but he was a work horse
and people hired him to dig their wells and cellars. They'd have thought
it a grave misfortune, had they thought about it at all, for Lit's frail
daughter Lo to fall into Eliot's hands. They knew she wasn't dead, insofar
as they knew anything at all, because she was sometimes seen at her window
beside the southern gate. That she looked sad was easy to understand, had
they understood anything at all, what with her father dead and she so young,
no more than sixteen. Had any discerned the more immediate cause of that
sadness, assuming they discerned anything at all, it is likely Eliot would
have been lynched.
Unfortunately, there was no reason for anyone to pass
by Eliot's cottage except to visit the southern gate to the Desert of Bones.
Terrapin was fertile and self-sufficient, desired no commerce with the land
across the waste, so passers-by were rare.
Bullied into submission, Lo failed to realize that release
from bondage would have been as simple as running to Ro. The daughter of
his oldest friend would have been protected as a matter of course. Unfortunately
Ro had much to occupy his mind and remembrance of the pale, black haired
girl found no place among his comets and constellations.
Nor did Elmo much remember her, though they'd lived next
door, played and scrapped together while their fathers smoked and exchanged
riddlesome chat. Besides, Lo had been altogether too smart for Elmo's taste.
She was, after all, a year older than he. Elmo wasn't less intelligent than
many, but Lo was, after all, the school master's daughter and probably had
lessons for breakfast. She made him feel a bit thick. He wouldn't have been
surprised to find she could read.
Few in the town could read, other than Ro, Lit, old Gia
and maybe Aeoui, who would never say. The ability to do so was viewed with
suspicion. Since there was nothing in Terrapin to read anyway, neither menu
nor road sign, Elmo didn't suppose it made much difference and never applied
himself to Lit's offer of instruction. Some said the marks on the floor
of the Giant's Harp were writings, but most believed they were just decoration.
Elmo learned to play whistle, having a good ear and deft
fingers. He sometimes attempted duets with the Schula, but since the wind
generally blew music either down the cliff or up from the sea, seldom did
their melody unite unless the winds were still. Even then the faint music
was often overcome by the murmur of surf.
Elmo had a yen to join her and make music face to face,
but descent from the Giant's Harp to the beach was perilous. Those who attempted
were few in any generation. Certainly no grown townsman would be fool enough
to try, even if tempted by the enchanting melodies floating up the promontory
face.
*
Early one morning, before
Ro awoke, Elmo set off to attempt descent of the northern promontory cliff
face, undismayed by tales of boys who never returned. It was the morning
of his fifteenth birthday and this was the present he'd promised himself.
His interest in the Schula had burned brighter and brighter since the afternoon
Ro had handed him the spyglass to view the lovely creature five years ago.
He'd decided to wait until he was at least as tall as he guessed her to
be. He'd grown quite a bit in the last year.
To the right of the overgrown path, leading to the cliff
face, rose the lyre-shaped pillars of the Giant's Harp. Stone steps descended
a hundred feet to the jade mines. Rusted tools and coils of rope lay scattered
around the entrances to the mined-out shafts. Elmo found a small hand pick
and selected a coil of tarred rope which he slung over his shoulder. He
stuck the pick in his belt, where dangled his sheath knife, whistle, Ro's
spyglass and a canteen.
A hairbrush, a wood framed looking glass and a bag of
taffy, items that might be expected to entice a Schula, should personal
charm fail, completed his array of necessities.
The steps ended five hundred feet past the mines. A footpath
ran at a steep angle past the vent holes and surface quarries but soon trickled
away to a deer trail through a maze of vines covering a series of monolithic
terraces, hidden, except in broad outline, beneath centuries of untended
growth. Like the Giant's Harp, whose terraced steps they resembled in height
and breadth, they terminated in mid-air, jutting into emptiness. Whatever
they once led to no longer existed.
Elmo slid down a maze of vines, known as "the monkey
climb," scratching himself on blackberry bramble, thistle and the stinging
nettle which twined among the creepers. The edge of the monkey climb was
as far as anyone usually ventured before reconsidering the call to adventure,
what with two thankless hours needed to battle to the bottom of it and twice
that to climb back. Only a bare rock ledge, providing an inferior view,
rewarded the toil.
Silver lizards dozed in the late morning sun, scattering
as he came to the end of the monkey climb and approached the rocky ledge.
It was more difficult to climb down the steeply sloped lip of the ledge
than it had been to slide and stumble through the vines. The vines offered
only discomfort but the rock face promised danger. At least there were no
further thorns to jab or nettles to sting.
Face against the rock, his back to the sea, Elmo didn't
see the lucid mirages over the shimmering water below: projections of the
town, familiar houses and avenues, mingled with fantastical landscapes,
making it impossible to tell where permutation ended and simple reflection
began. The Nine Hammers was promoted to the dimensions of the Giant's Harp,
which monument was reduced to the size of a mean hovel among shifting, glass-like
fingers of hallucination.
Elmo descended the first several hundred feet splayed
belly to rock, oozing like a drop of tallow from ledge to ledge. As the
distance between ledges increased, he began looping his tarred rope around
outcroppings of stone to lower himself.
The rope was fifty feet long to begin, but he cut it in
half to lessen the burden. None of the drops had been more than twenty feet
and he figured, out of misplaced optimism, that the going would not get
much harder.
The next hour vanquished this miscalculation. He was forced
to reclimb. He was fortunate enough to find a more accessible route back
up, where he sat and spliced the discarded length after coming to a drop
requiring fully fifty feet of rope to negotiate. He'd learned rope splicing
from Lit, did it well and quickly, but the miscalculation cost an hour of
precious daylight.
His method of descent involved slipping a noose around
the base of a rock, sliding down, then unfastening the loop with repeated
whipstrokes. Sometimes it wasn't possible to dislodge the rope, and he had
to shinny back up and secure the loop in a different fashion. It didn't
occur to him to loop the rope around a rock on shorter drops, slide down
the doubled course, and simply pull it after him. What Lit or his father
had not specifically taught seldom occurred to him.
Evening approaching, Elmo was able to gain several hundred
yards quickly as the stone strata became more forgiving. The pick sank easily
into the limestone layer, allowing short drops without the nuisance of securing
and retrieving the rope.
The sun touched the sea as the limestone face graduated
again to harder rock, requiring rope. The first few drops were easy enough,
but they led to a hundred foot clear fall. Elmo stared at his fifty foot
coil, questioning, for the first time, the good sense of his adventure as
fatigue swooped out of a red chunk of sunset cloud and claimed him.
He broke into tears of frustration. If only he had a kite
of Harp Tree leaves to carry him to his destination. The wind was probably
strong enough to bear him to the beach had he the materials and tools to
make one. Having nothing better to do at the moment, he recalled the first
time he'd ascended into the winds of Terrapin, his kite string played out
by Aor, the town Rough, one of the sons of the mythic Wolf O'the Wild, old
Loup Aru. He remembered the exhilaration he'd felt during this rite of passage
... and the sensation of terror, second only to that of his father, who'd
declined to hold the slender cord of the kite himself while watching the
issue of his loins silhouetted against a crimson cloud, causing the astronomer
to mutter an unaccustomed but spontaneous prayer to a deity in which he
did not believe.
Elmo's resolve was refreshed by the Schula's song, absent
the greater span of his climb, ringing to responsive stirring in his heart.
Doubt vanished as quickly as it had descended. But there could be no more
climbing today. First he would have to unwind the individual strands of
the rope and rebraid them, thinner and longer, from the half inch thickness.
The rope would be less secure, but there was no other choice.
Before beginning the long job, he had to reclaim the rope,
again wedged tight in its anchorage. With no strength to climb back, he
whipsnapped, ever more languidly, while he listened to the Schula sing an
interminable ballad of ancient Terrapin, a story familiar from the tellings
of Aeoui.
Yu was father to all gods but one. Ist was half mortal,
daughter of Bran, a giant shepherd of land whales. Her mother, File, was
the youngest daughter of Yu. She had discovered the giant drifting in the
sea, an island to all appearances.
It seems that after searching the Earth for hundreds of
years, seeking others of his giant race and finding none, Bran gave way
to despair, left his herd of land whales, and plunged into the sea where
he floated unconscious and dreamless. File discovered the giant, fell in
love with his handsome countenance, and did her best to awaken him by dancing
on his breast while singing the same song with endless variations for a
hundred years.
Wake my love and come to me
Wake my love and follow
I will sing to thee today
And thou to me tomorrow
alalee alala alaloo
Wake my love to this my song
From slumber hie thee hither
Before the fruit of love decays
The supple branches wither
alaloo alala alalee
Wake my love and fill my cup
With measure overflowing
Place thy treasure in my keep
Who best may tend its growing
alala alalee alaloo
Wake my love, I dance alone
Who woulds't with thee entwine
As human flesh to human bone
As red, red lips to wine
alalee alala alaloo
Before the birth
of Ist, Yu was content ruling over the gods, a respected parent. But Ist
was stubborn, willful, insolent, beautiful, vain, and gifted with music
earthly and divine.
She made Yu unhappy. This was his first encounter with
such a feeling, so he didn't understand what it was, only that he wished
to avoid it. Before this, there was nothing he did not embrace with the
whole of himself. This feeling he would cast away from him. Or cast himself
away from it, if need must be. After long brooding, he left the City of
Eagles to seek remedy not to be found in heaven. He sought no advice from
his gods. Since he'd never before had a question, he did not know how to
pose one.
Yu wished only to be where Ist was not. Her beauty disturbed
him as much as her insolence. Never having experienced anything but the
greatest felicity from his children, he did not know willfulness for what
it was - nor understand pride, admixture of traits human and divine - for
he was only divine. And though he'd breathed life into those godlet creatures
shaped by his sons and daughters to be carried to Earth on the broad back
of the Terrapin, their doings were beyond his interest or his ken.
Yu went walking on Earth, making himself small so he did
not upset the people or step on their towns. He'd never come to Earth before,
only looked down, now and again, attracted by a well said prayer and suitable
sacrifice. If animal, the spirit of the sacrificial beast was served to
the gods at table. If human, it was set to work - spirits of women to spinning
and weaving; those of men to serving wine and tending table. Spirits of
children were set free to enjoy the endless day of the City of Eagles.
Spirits of the sacrificed were fed well and given good
liquor in just compensation for their moment of supreme agony. The work
was pleasant among playful and loving gods, and music was part of the air
of the City of Eagles, wherefore, the moral of the Schula's song avowed,
it behooved any young man or woman to be sacrificed to Yu.
Elmo teased at the rope a bit more, yawning. He didn't
think that being sacrificed to Yu was probably as inviting as the Schula
suggested, but then he wasn't very religious. As the endless song continued,
his efforts to free the rope became ever more feeble, the whipsnap ripples
more gentle, until they no longer stirred the clump of sowthistle the rope
was snagged in.
It happened, sang the Schula, life was so interesting
on Earth that Yu recovered his former good cheer. In the hundredth year
of his wanderings, he discovered the oldest of his creatures, one long lost
to him, created even before the gods to whom was given the task of building
Earth upon a foundation of mud heaved up from the dark ocean between the
stars. The dark ocean was the mother of Yu, who had no father.
This oldest of creatures was the very friend Yu had created
for company while still a child, tired of wandering the skies alone - the
very Terrapin who helped the children of Yu to build Earth, carrying upon
his broad back whatever the gods designed and wished to place there: trees,
sand, the many living things they had made in their shops and petitioned
Yu to breathe life into.
The song was becoming repetitious. Elmo did not hear the
end of the tale. Drowsiness proved stronger than interest. He would leave
the rope wedged till morning. The boy crawled into a shallow niche in the
cliff to succumb with reluctance into the sleep of fatigue.
Dreams eased up the crevices from the beach, some wound
down the promontory face on puffs of cloud, fragrant and rosy with sunset
colors. Other, darker, dangerous dreams lurked inside the niche, but they
were formless and difficult to dream. Long banished to the walls of the
shallow niche, they dropped gratefully onto the sleeper in hopes of finding
a stage upon which to perform their transmutations.
The mind of the exhausted climber dissolved into a tantalizing
romp of fantasy which faded until only a silver sky remained, shading gradually
into its own horizon, darkening into the depths of slumber without image.
Dawn spirits in scrub trees conversed in cricket ratch
and cicada whir, loud even against the roar of waves. There was no trace
of quiet in the night, outside of the sleeper's deafness to it all.
A discontented measure of melody drifted in a tendril
up the cliff face, like an uncoiling rope, paying out to the level of the
sleeper's niche, worming its way through the substance of his slumber, summoning
him like a beckoning finger. Something of the Schula charged this tentacle
of tone and was not to be dismissed. Elmo arose, still sleeping, caught
hold of the tip of the beckoning strand and fixed his own rope to it, making
a ladder to descend to her.
But the tendril now projected horizontally, rather than
downward. At its end lay the beach and thudding surf, no longer below but
inclined straight ahead across a gulf through which the strand twined and
shimmered.
The tendril twisted teasingly to and fro then suddenly
slithered around his wrist, penetrating his skin, threaded his veins as
easily as vision pierces clear glass, pouring melody in pulses through his
arteries.
Mingling with his lifestream, it breathed through his
lungs, looked through his eyes, gave instant solution to all the mystery
the music presented, promised answer without ceasing to many more mysteries,
all delicious to know.
It seemed a simple matter to pursue the trilling to its
source, to take a step forward and flow along it like an impulse along a
plucked string, but as he lifted a foot, a chill blast of wind turned the
warm current of his dream into ice. He awoke teetering on the verge of the
precipice, preparing to step to his doom, shrill of cicadas loud in his
ear, banishing the phantasm of music with a jolt of pure terror.
He spent the rest of the night clinging to the bosom of
the stony niche. Nor till dawn did the youth fall into a strength-recovering
sleep, fingers loosing their compulsive grip, dozing sentience assuring
that murderous visions are of the order of night, powerless to broach daylight
slumber.
When Elmo awoke, the sun was nearly forty five degrees
above the horizon and the vista was awash with mirage: spires and domes
of unearthly architecture, shot through with dragons and birds of light,
transparent to the horizon of sea and sun.
In a heap at the mouth of the niche lay his climbing rope,
by some agency dislodged and kept from falling to the beach below; its most
likely natural trajectory.
Elmo figured that the last limp, lashing tug of evening
must have unseated it; its own weight allowing it to gradually slither free.
The light rain of morning must have helped it some, lubricating and adding
weight to the strands. Mystery explained, he began unbraiding and resplicing
the rope to double length while the Schula's full-throated morning song
commenced.
Upon a silver strand sat I
O me and my love beside me
If ever, my love, I chance to die
O die, my love, beside me
...sang the Shula with a rollicking
lilt belying the substance of the lyric. Resting his fingers for a moment
from the braiding, he trained Ro's spyglass on the singer. For the first
time, he saw her face in clear detail. Below abundant copper hair, violet
eyes looked back, aware of being watched. She smiled brightly.
Strength was renewed, as much by the smile as by slumber,
though Elmo was very thirsty. His canteen was empty and his tongue stuck
to the roof of his mouth as he fixed the rope to a rock and began to lower
himself through the swarming mirage which poured off the ocean, hiding the
true features of the face of his descent.
Approaching the end of his extended rope, he had to swing
out in an arc to reach the outcropping below. And there, it seemed, his
journey must end. The rest of the drop, three hundred yards, was smooth
as glass with no outcrop, handhold or pick purchase visible.
Frustration vied with thirst for the spoils of aggravation. He had no choice
but to stay right where he was. He could hear, but not
see the Schula, who lilted on no more than half a minute's walk away, were
that walk not a sheer drop.
He wasted away the morning, dejectedly tossing pebbles
to the beach, wondering if there was any way to get back up since he couldn't
get down. The Schula sang on and eventually there was nothing to do but
take his whistle from his pouch, apply his dry lips and join the music.
They could, at least, hear one another clearly at last.
He waited until she finished her song, then played one
he'd often heard her sing. The Schula joined in at the second phrase, soaring
over the notes he played, curling round them until, transported, Elmo lost
the beat. She stopped abruptly, with a shriek of displeasure.
After awhile she sang again and he ventured his whistle
into the web of tones cautiously, exercising more discretion. He played
with closed eyes and didn't notice that, as the angle of the sun steepened,
the mirages around the cliff face dissipated, and where there had been a
sheer wall of impassable glass, the true lay of the face revealed itself,
stepping from beneath its deceptive curtain.
The three hundred foot drop was a mirage! The beach was
a mere stroll away. He covered the ten foot drop to the next ledge in a
joyous leap, plunging into a bush of daisies soft as feathers.
A spray of mist collected by the breeze from the cataracts
of Terrapin promised quenching of his thirst and the nearness of song the
sating of his heart's desire. The stream of Schula melody coursed liquidly
and along it he flowed, exultant, to the beach.
Ballad of the Doubly Drowned
One further minor
mirage cleared as Elmo sped to the beach. The short run downhill was steeper
than it looked. Unable to brake his momentum, the boy charged past the Schula
and half way to the surf before losing his footing.
Startled, the Schula's pitch wavered. She stopped mid-note
and glanced briefly at the offending projectile. Seeing only an insignificant
boy, about her own size, she recovered her composure and sang on, just as
though no intruder had dropped out of the sky to disturb her.
Elmo recovered and approached the Schula's stone, politely
awaiting the song's end to introduce himself. He'd heard this ballad before
but did not remember it being so lengthy. When the Schula came to the last
verse, she began another song with no break between; one unknown to him.
Though the new tune was a good one, the boy became more
and more distressed at receiving such casual treatment after his arduous
descent. Fatigue and thirst provoked further irritation but there was nothing
to do for it but wait politely while the Schula sang verse after verse.
Elmo's debut had been disastrous and he didn't want to compound it by interrupting
the maiden or insulting her by wandering off in search of a drink before
introducing himself.
Barren beats my broken heart
And listless rolls my eye
Life has fled, the better part,
And left me here to die
A bird upon yon elder bough
Brought news of you to me
Your coming death he did avow
And bade me visit thee
William, sweet William
I heard me not your plea
Vain and proud I would not come
You died of love for me
I will tie a lover's knot
That none shall ever loose
Of roses, vine and bergamot
I'll plait myself a noose
Around my throat I'll wear it
As from yon elder bough . . .
"Aren't you
clumsy? Where did you come from?" demanded the Schula in mid-phrase,
suddenly riveting Elmo with eyes of brilliant blue.
"Up there, where the clouds are," said Elmo,
pointing to the Giant's Harp wreathed in morning mist.
"Are you hot?"
"Hot?" he replied, a drop of sweat dangling
from the tip of his nose, "Not very."
The Schula turned from the boy and continued her tune,
picking up the beat of the tale where she'd left off.
Despite thirst and confusion Elmo was astonished by the
glamour of the Schula. Some of the girls of Terrapin were fetching enough,
but glamour of this sort was unknown in Terrapin, whose rural necessities
produced a species of female more prized for strength and durability than
comeliness.
Nor had Elmo seen a female half clad before. The Schula
wore only an unconcealing skirt of braided fibers. Apple round breasts peeked
through cascading tawny locks, making the young lad nervous. He tried to
avert his eyes, but could not. The Schula gave no indication of minding.
Elmo might just as well not have been there at all. He had a curious feeling
of invisibility which was not unpleasurable.
Elmo hit on the ploy of offering the sack of lures he'd
so carefully selected. That might get a response. He untied the pouch from
his belt and dangled it by the thong. But the Schula was not to be diverted
from her song a second time. Her brilliant blue eyes gazed right through
him.
As the Schula sang, mirages formed of forest, fen and
foreign soil. A honey-colored shaft of light shot through with bands of
black seemed to roll and coil above her head as the sunlit beach became
a stage for another, darker, time and place. Then, the Schula herself dissolved
into the play of mirage, until only her eyes and voice remained.
Elmo stood stupidly, dangling the lure, a shadow transfixed,
until at long last, the heroine of the song hanged herself by her garland
while the messenger thrush celebrated the definitive union of the star-crossed
lovers in death.
The mirage dissolved slowly and, through it, the lightly
webbed hand of the Schula extended. Elmo gave her the sack. He'd intended
to parcel it out an item at a time, but. . . it wasn't really his to decide.
Her gaze once more included him for a moment, which was
all the thanks he was to receive. She studied his face for a perplexed moment,
then turned her eyes to the gift. Thick coils of bronze hair hid her face
as she peered into the sack. Elmo could not tell whether she was surprised,
delighted or even somewhat pleased by its contents.
Whatever her expression, by the time she finished eating
the sugar, admiring herself in the mirror and running the whale bone brush
through her hair a few strokes, it could not be read.
Sufficiently groomed, she tossed the toiletry gifts to
the sand and made two fists which she held before one eye in the attitude
of a spyglass. Elmo proffered the instrument, which she eagerly snatched
and put to her eye, wrong side to, lens trained on her foot. Startled by
the unexpected change of perspective, the Schula dropped the spyglass onto
her rock. The lens cracked. Elmo snatched it up and put it quickly to his
eye to check the damage. A hairline fracture. Ro would be furious. The boy
realized that now he could never return. A lump rose in his throat as he
turned the glass on the Schula who had begun to walk down the beach.
The fissure in the lens created an optic flame which surrounded
the Schula's head like a nimbus, but it was her swaying stride and claspable
waist that stirred Elmo's attention. He wiped a drop of sudden sweat from
his nose and followed her down the beach.
The Schula found another rock to adorn, tossed her hair,
yawned and then demanded:
"Who are you and why do you pursue me?"
"Elmo. And I like your singing. Who are you?"
"E," she touched her finger to her chin and
drew a straight line to her navel, ending with a finger snap.
"E?"
"Sa!" She made a sad face and buried it in her
hands as though grieved. "Aeeeii ... Sah!" Then she inquired:
"What is that?"
"It's a spyglass, it makes things come up close,
if you look in the right side. Did you see me watching you from above?"
She nodded.
"Mirror."
"Spyglass," he corrected.
"Mirror!" she replied decisively, turned away
and began singing.
Suddenly Elmo's thirst would allow no further distraction.
He turned his back upon the lady of the rock and dogtrotted a few hundred
yards to where a waterfall splashed from the cliff, buried his face in its
pool, and drank his fill several times over. A sharp cramp ended his greedy
guzzle. He would have howled in pain were he not choking on the last swallow.
He gagged ... panting and coughing at the same time, bent double with pain.
Great as was his distress, he refused to cry aloud within
hearing of the Schula, whose back was turned to him. He assumed that any
show of weakness would doom all further attempts to make friends with the
imperious creature. He was probably right.
Wondering why the boy, who obviously fancied her, had
suddenly stopped paying courting, the Schula slyly turned her head to discover,
by peripheral vision, the cause of her abandonment. Had Elmo accepted disdain
at face value and gone away? Ah, no. He was lying by the pool. But how could
he nap in her presence? ...and during her song!
Elmo had stopped writhing by this time. Still rigid, he
tried to melt the cramp by will power, making it no better and no worse,
for he had none.
Waiting several minutes to detect any sign of artifice
in Elmo's posture, the Schula's vanity and curiosity wrestled within her
charming bosom. Aggravation stirred toward this male creature who was apparently
less susceptible to her charm than she would have expected.
Cheeks aflame, her will, for the moment, was not her own.
The Schula approached Elmo and prodded him with her toe.
The cramp was beginning to subside, but he lay very still, concentrating,
confident that his will was working a wonder. She prodded him again. This
time he managed to look up. Even though she broke his concentration, the
cramp continued to relax, proving that will, once set in motion, works wonders
on its own.
He looked up to a smiling face. "Isa" she said,
pointing to herself. Elmo heard the note of surrender in the simple enunciation
of her name, but it didn't signify much to him, filtered as it was through
the nausea of his diminishing cramp and he made no reply.
This lack of response to her friendly tone was so unexpected
that the Schula's previous aggravation kindled to rage. She fell to keening
tones of such distress that Elmo was moved despite his misery, though not
to physical motion. Impassioned Isa, able no longer to stand the pain of
slight, threw herself on the sand and began thrashing.
The cramp suddenly released its hold on Elmo, who sat
up and looked in amazement at the actions of the Schula. So bitter was the
pain of apparent rejection, the Schula didn't notice the change in the boy.
He tried to stand but the Schula grabbed his leg, fearing that he intended
to flee. Her small fingers were stronger than they appeared and the grip
hurt. As Elmo tried to pull away, she clenched more desperately. A wave
splashed far into shore; a finger of ocean rushed directly to their spot
and lingered for a moment pointing straight at them.
"Hey, that hurts! Let go! I'm not going anywhere..."
Isa let go her grasp and buried her face in her hands,
shamed by her foolish actions. The boy had no idea what to do next and sat
thoroughly confused. The Schula composed herself and gave the boy the last
piece of sugar candy in the pouch. He accepted it and put it in his mouth.
A wave crashed and applauded. Face was restored.
Three more Schulas appeared far down the beach, laughing
and chattering as they came closer. They darted in and out of the surf,
lacing their babble with chirps of musical phrases. The trio settled on
a rock and struck up a harmony.
When the wind rolls on the ocean
When the sun shines on the sand
When clouds reach from the sky above
And take me by the hand . . .
Elmo turned from
Isa to watch the pretty Schulas and listen to their tune, but Isa gently
took his hand and led him further up the beach, away from them.
"They sing like gulls. It hurts my ears."
"They aren't as good as you, but it's a pretty song."
"A silly song with a silly story, though you can't
tell from the way they mumble it."
"I know the song, I've heard you sing it. Or I think
it was you."
"I sang it once, that's so, but only because I was
sick with poisoned clams and it expressed my pain."
A bubble surged from the subaquatic pits which kept the
local sea warm as bath water, colors streaming over its surface in broad
horizontal bands. A flock of seagulls settled on it, crowding together at
the top so as not to slip down the sides. Isa led Elmo around a fold of
the cliff, far enough down the beach for the surf to hush the rival Schulas.
She chose a rock to adorn, held both of his hands, and began singing a song
calculated to demonstrate, convincingly, her easy superiority over her silly
sister Schulas and charm their memory out of his ears.
The Schula sang, in minor mode with little ornament, a
mournful ballad, sparse of melody, with many, many, verses. As she sang,
it seemed, the sea crept closer to listen:
A sailor who perished at sea,
Able a man as ever was found,
Drifted down to the Garden of Po
God of the sea - king of the drowned
All the blooms of the garden
From tangles of seaweed grew
Eyes rolled up in eternal dream
A cheerless and ghastly crew
Their hair and hands floated upward
As though they sought to flee
But none had ever escaped from Po
And his garden beneath the sea
Those who die on shipboard
Are subject to other fates
But those who drown inside the sea
Sink through these garden gates
A Schula who loved this sailor
Sweet daughter of Po and Ist
Begged her father to spare the man
"Surely one flower will never be missed"
Full of the dead his garden grew
The rotten ripe fruit of the sea
She begged, pleaded, and softened the heart
Of the God whose favorite was she
Often she sang on the sailor's watch
To hurry the night away
He on the quarter-deck, she on the waves
Who vanished at break of day
The face of the maid who sang to him
The sailor never had seen
At hint of dawn she disappeared
Beneath the ocean's green
The sailor was married, this she knew
The Schulas know many things
Married to one to whom he was true
As the Schula to songs she sings
And thus her love was pure
And thus her love was true
She didn't divide his loyalties
With a flash of her eyes of blue
The god relented but cautioned her
Since never had such been done:
For seven years the sailor might live
But return when the time was run
For upon his brow the mark of the drowned
Was set and would there remain
No other kingdom of death may hold
A soul that the sea had claimed
He could not die in battle or bed
Nor perish in fire nor frost
And though a sword should pierce his heart
His life could not be lost
The sailor returned to his family
And turned his back on the sea
Though at night he went to the water
Where the Schula would oftimes be
And though he never saw her face
He loved in his heart her song
He thought of her as a childlike thing
But in this he was halfway wrong
For the Schula was a woman
Of beauty surpassingly rare
Waist slender as two hands round
And hips full round to bear
Lovely was she as starlight
Pale was she as the moon
Blue her eyes as sunlit sea
In the bright shining afternoon
Any braw man would love her
Of this she was quite aware
And so she kept to cover
Her face and her golden hair
Seven years passed agreeably
The sons of the sailor grew
Strong young lads with their father's face
Handsome young men and true
The eve of the day agreed upon
The date that his soul was due
The sailor went down to the beach at night
In hopes of a song or two
The Schula showed herself to him
By light of a crescent moon
And told his fate in words of woe
Soft spoken, no more the tune
"Now hast thou laid thine eyes on me
Who concealed myself with cause
That thou might love thine wife, not me,
And honor thy marriage vows
"But now thou must away with me
To the garden of drownded men
Thou wert delivered but by my pleas
Who must fetch you back again"
"I know full well that doom resides
Within this heart of mine,
Although I knew not what the cause
Nor how that doom would shine."
This the sailor said to her
But would not take her hand
"Let thy father come to me,
For I'll not leave the land!"
And yet his heart was smitten,
Divided quite in twain
As though it had been written
That the price of love is pain.
His wife, the joy of his eye,
Now looked to him so plain
Beside the glowing Schula
Who came for him in vain
Each by each the days grew cold
Though it were late in Spring
Listless lapped the gray, cold waves
Where Schulas did not sing
Each by each his sons went down
In ships to ply their trade
His eldest fell in battle
To a round of cannonade.
This stroke felled the sailor's wife
Whom lack of love had sallowed
Both were laid in Fiddler's Green
And soon a third grave followed.
The second son fell from a mast
And all his bones were broken
Still the sailor would not heed
The words that had been spoken
Full well he knew a curse was laid
Yet naught to him prevailed
So stricken by the Schula's charms
Was he that reason failed
His youngest son was lost at sea
And still the sailor kept
Both his feet upon dry land
And not a tear he wept.
He waited by the beach each night
In hopes to hear the sound
Of his beloved's singing voice
One night she washed up drowned
He roared and ranted at the sea
He tore his clothes and cursed
At length he knelt him down to pray
Where angry breakers burst
"O god of the ocean, king of the waves
And all who inhabit the deep
I would strike a bargain with thee
To return to thy ghastly keep"
Wind upon wind and wave upon wave
And lightning gave him reply:
"Tell me sailor, the terms you seek
And prepare yourself to die!"
"Thou has destroyed the life I had,
I require no further days -
But this, thy daughter, I thee implore,
From the depths of the dead to raise!"
"Fling thyself from the uppermost rock
Of the ridge abutting the sea
And I will deliver my daughter's life,
Though it do no good to thee!"
The sailor leapt over the cliff to doom,
The breakers devoured him whole
Tides delivered him to the home
Awaiting his bloodstained soul
The Schula woke from the dream of death
And found what had come to pass,
Demanded of Po her stolen death,
Which he granted, with grief, alas
For though the granting of life was his,
A power he'd come to rue
It lay not in his power to refuse
A death which was rightly due
Returned to the rapture of the drowned,
A heaven of silt and slime
Her body sought the sailor's,
In the garden they intertwined
At the garden gate the lovers float
To welcome the newly dead
With silver fishes in their throats
And eyes turned back in their heads
The grim ballad issued
like a golden tendril from Isa's lips, twining about itself to form a braid
of narrative and, when finished, shivered into pinpricks of light and vanished.
Seeing the effect of her song upon her listener, Isa regained all of her
former self-possession and was only too ready to refuse when he begged to
hear another.
The other Schulas had come up the beach to hear the Ballad
of the Doubly Drowned and when it was done, rushed out to the waves to sport
around the sand pit bubble and chase their reflections. Isa sprang from
her rock and ran after them, slipping like a hand into the glove of the
sleek surf. She emerged four hundred yards out, shooting straight up from
the water, within the bubble, beckoning to Elmo, who was quick to follow,
stripping down to his undergarment and diving into the sea for the first
time in his life, finding the warm saltwater more inviting and buoyant than
the cold creeks of Terrapin.
Emerging inside the bubble, he was astounded. There was
no sensation of rising within a confined space. The perspective was, instead,
one of colossal sky overhead. The effect of the sunlight shining through
the shifting bands of color was exhilarating. A flood of lemon yellow washed
away by a rain of aquamarine greeted his arrival.
Isa smiled, treading water with so little effort she seemed
to stand still, while Elmo splashed like the river trained swimmer he was.
Isa again began to sing.
This time she sang no story or melody, but sustained a
high, ringing pitch. Gradually she let the note warble and vibrate, producing
overtones which ascended the harmonic ladder to the ceiling of audibility.
The colors and patterns of the sky-bubble shifted and changed hue in response
to her tonal commands. A clear patch formed in the center of the hemisphere.
Isa directed her tone at the center of this patch, tightening the vibration
until the note she held was overshadowed in volume by the clear, ringing
overtone it produced, growing in intensity until the bubble suddenly shattered.
Isa dove beneath the water before the fragments touched
them, pulling Elmo with her. He was so startled he lost his air, struggling
below the surface with empty lungs. Isa drew him to her, placed her lips
upon his and gave him half her air in a carefully measured kiss while a
boy on a kite sailed high over their heads from the steps of the Giant's
Harp.
During this time in Terrapin, the inhabitants were treated
to a variety of new tunes by the Schula. Elmo taught her some of the songs
of the nomadic Roughs, as learned from old Aor, master of kites. Elmo played
the tunes on his whistle, for he had no voice to sing, and recited the verses
to Isa, who learned them perfectly first time through, giving new weight
to the ancient litanies by her sonorous tone and delicacy of ornament.
Her favorite, the "Palanitos" was a lament of
eye stinging sadness, supposedly in the ancient tongue of Terrapin, relating
the suffering of a kidnapped virgin in the home of a cruel giant:
Mishwallala lia lo, liolai,
Shambala, Intoila, liolai-arou
Elio septe Intoila,
Shalla Mishwalla, lia lo, lio lai, lialoo
When she sang it
for the first time, the shaggy heads of some Roughs, that evening passing
through Terrapin, appeared on the lower terrace of the Giant's Harp, enraptured
by the transformation of the favorite tale. She watched them through the
cracked spyglass as she sang. The sea was quiet as sun set and after awhile
the Roughs could not help but bawl along on the refrain, intensifying the
music until it seemed the lowering disc of sun paused a bit, wanting to
hear the end, before slipping behind the rim of the bay.
The Wind of Ist
Isa, supine on the
beach, watched her toes through the wrong end of the spyglass as the water
rushed over them and retreated, carving furrows beneath her heels. She suddenly
turned the glass on Elmo, whose eyes she could feel washing over her with
an undertow of their own. He looked away quickly. Why, she wondered, did
he blush so when she caught him staring at her body?
The Schula smiled, sat up, returned her gaze to the sea,
shifting so her profile was displayed, arranging her cloak of tawny hair
to the best advantage of her charms. She felt his eyes return like an arrow
to its target as soon as she'd looked away.
Elmo carved at a thick reed with his jack knife, intending
to make a bass flute, but his attention was so distracted by the Schula
that the blade slipped and drew blood. He threw both tool and reed to the
sand, angrily, and sucked at the finger.
A shadow fell over him and when he looked up, Isa was
standing there, hair billowing in the breeze.
"What have you done to yourself?" she scolded.
He held up the gashed finger and she took his hand. The proximity of her
bewildering femininity was too much for Elmo. Finding nowhere to avert his
eyes, he closed them. He felt the lick of her tongue on the gash, lapping
away the blood. Then she took the finger in her mouth, held it there, rolling
her tongue around the injured member. Elmo flushed to the roots of his hair
and quickly placed his free hand over his lap in a gesture of concealment
which Isa, eyes wide open, did not fail to mark.
For fully five minutes she ministered to the finger and,
when she was done, there was no trace of cut nor blood, just a pleasurable
tingle in the restored digit.
Elmo was too flustered by the Schula's nearness to fully
appreciate the small miracle. When he could safely stand, he did, ambling
down to the surf. Isa remained where she stood, unable to fathom the boy's
shyness. She had never seen such physical reticence before. She vaguely
understood it didn't imply rejection, but beyond that it made no sense.
The Schulian culture, nine-tenths female, was not much
concerned with clothing. Denizens of temperate beaches, music was their
whole concern, seafood being plentiful and makeshift shelter, from wind,
rain or high tide, easy to find on the cliff base where thickets grew.
Obeying the Schulian adage "when in doubt, sing" Isa began an
ancient air:
When mighty Terrapin was young
And stars were yet to shine,
Before a song was ever sung
Nor ocean flowed with brine,
'Pon his back he brought the work
Of Heaven's gods to berth
Across an endless sea of murk
And built the garden Earth.
Star by star and sea by sea,
In Heaven's workshop wrought
To the world transported he,
And all the mountains brought
To rise above the firmament
He'd built of straw and sand,
Twice a thousand years were spent
To build this place to stand
Between the sky and emptiness
He carted grit and soil
Without a moment's pause to rest
from his appointed toil
While the Schula
sang, Elmo went for a walk along the beach. Lovely as the day, nice as the
song, he felt a rising irritation. Something was demanded of him by Isa,
but what was not clear to him. He felt ashamed that he could hardly keep
his eyes off her and more so since she caught him at it so often. What must
she think of him?
He didn't understand the nature of this attraction. He'd
certainly been drawn to girls before, but this was different. Red haired
Echo had excited a certain response in him, as had Lo, but it was mild and
passing. And, of course, they were always fully clothed, even modest in
their dress. Besides, it was their faces that attracted him, not their unripened
bodies.
Of matters physiological, his education was lacking. Certainly
his father, Ro, would never speak of such things. And Lit, his teacher,
had nothing to say on the matter, though he'd promised to tell Elmo certain
things when the time was right, knowing Ro would simply postpone the task
until it was too late to make any difference.
As for gutter education, Elmo had small opportunity. His
few friends knew as little as he. The primness of the local moral code was
strong and binding. Elmo had heard a thing or two about how babies were
conceived, but he didn't believe it. It sounded too far-fetched; the fantasies
of dirty minds.
He believed his feeling for the Schula to be more elevated
than all that. Her great beauty and wonderful singing touched him deeply.
Yet, it seemed, in her actual presence, the song faded away under the urge
to perform something indefinite, something undefined but forbidden, upon
her sweet ripe person.
He felt sure she could read his mind. The feeling was
so pronounced it must be apparent from a hundred paces. Otherwise, why would
she suddenly turn and gaze at him with that knowing smirk on her face? And,
knowing, why did she torment him as she had just done, healing his wound
in such a lascivious fashion, her small skirt of reeds brushing his face,
her aggravating breasts visible even through his closed eyelids? It was
too much to bear! Her behavior was . . . scandalous!
The song of ancient times rolled on the breeze. It seemed
the Schula was singing in his ear, following him. She was impossible to
escape.
On Terrapin the gods did ride
To stir the sea of mud
To froth it to a foaming tide
And quicken it with blood
Each god opened up a vein
And let the blood flow in
From it living creatures came
Where none were to begin
Yu sent down the heat of sun
To bake the sediment
Until at last the deed was done
The finished firmament
T'was then all things were ferried
To be set upon the land
Across the abyss carried
All the gods had made by hand,
Upon the back of Terrapin
Till all was brought at last
Each thing found a place therein
Then Terrapin slept fast
A thousand years he rested
Beside a silver stream
Where gentle billows crested
In a sleep bereft of dream.
Elmo sat down on
a rock and continued to carve at his bass flute, scraping away a spot of
dried blood, suddenly realizing the strangeness of the healing process whose
pleasurable sensation had turned his thoughts from the sweet simplicity
of an innocent act to enflaming images. That he was bad, he had no doubt.
That the Schula provoked this badness was also beyond denial.
Isa's melodious discourse eased his apprehension, but
only somewhat, as she wove the tale of Earth's creation.
While he slept, upon a loom
The gods were set to weaving
A giant cloth as black as doom,
As dark as widow's grieving.
They sprinkled it with bits of light
They chipped from off the sun,
Wove in comet tails of white,
And threads of dawn were spun.
When done, they woke old Terrapin
To endless daylight bright
And bade him take one end within
His jaws and hold it tight
They bade him take it to the world
And cloak the sun from sight
And as he swam, the cloth unfurled
And thus was born the night.
Elmo knew the story
well, from the lips of Aeoui, the storyteller. For the next thousand years
Terrapin delivered these and all manner of things that are now to be found.
There was this difference in his labor now: he slept at night, so that not
everything the gods conceived and made was, in the end, delivered. Much
remains in their workshops. The two humans the gods had fashioned became
restless and vowed it was good enough for them just as it stood and gave
the gods no peace until they had their way.
Terrapin carried all the creatures the Gods had fashioned,
forty at a time, one trip a day for forty days until all had been delivered.
He was summoned then to the City of Eagles to be rewarded for his toil.
A great banquet was given in his honor.
Weary from his labor, he fell asleep after drinking the
first glass of wine from the first pressing of the first grapes. When he
awoke, another thousand years had passed and men had built their towns and
villages. They had learned all the arts the gods had given them to know,
but they did not know how to dream. Of dreams the gods knew nothing.
Sleeping in the City of Eagles, Terrapin invented dreams,
that sleep might be the sounder. He made enough to spare and when he woke
he went back to Earth and wandered from place to place, leaving a portion
of dreams in each place he visited, some in cliffs and some in forests,
some on mountain peaks, wherever someone might chance to fall asleep. When
he reached the West, many dreams remained. He left some on the beach and
the rest on the desert, which became mirages.
Elmo paid scant attention to the singing of the familiar
tale. He was too disturbed by the singer. He had not, he said to himself,
come down here to be ignored. The Schula had ignored him from the start
. . . when she wasn't throwing herself at him. Do her good to see less of
him for awhile, maybe she'd . . .
No way to get out of here, or he'd take it, the way he
felt at the moment. It would take a week or two to climb back up the cliff,
if it could be done at all. There was no ducking in and out of the Beach
of Mirages.
Isa, on the other hand, wondered why Elmo expected her
to make all the moves. Certainly he was interested. And company was company.
There were no men of her scarce race available. The few Schulos there were
had more willing women at their beck and call than they could handle, so
that they grew soft and stupid to a man. Even Elmo looked good next to them.
Maybe she wasn't good enough for him? He said he was an astronomer and made
maps of the stars when he was home. It sounded like a lie, but he talked
knowledgeably about ecliptics, orbits and other boring things. She would
have preferred to converse, but he tended to speak at, rather than with,
her.
"What happened after Yu found Terrapin when he came
down to Earth to get away from Ist? I fell asleep on the cliff before I
heard the end," said Elmo, just as though he didn't already know the
story. It seemed like a good thing to say at the time. Give her some of
her own back.
"Then you heard all I sang. I grew tired and slept
myself."
"Tell me the rest. There's nothing else to do down
here."
Isa flushed, turned quickly away and, after a moment,
began to sing. It is the Schula's way to sing when perplexed.
As the song unfolded, the grayness of the day passed with
a brief, warm rain and a rainbow arched to touch its own reflection on the
calm swells, forming a perfect circle. A mirage of the Giant's Harp wavered
within.
When first Yu came to Terrapin
He came not in fine array
He wore a body black and thin,
A pilgrim of the way
Ten thousand years unto the day
From when the world was made
The roiling mud turned into clay
And trees brought down for shade
Ten thousand years, no more nor less,
The sun rolled 'round the Earth
Before the god came to the West
To this, our place of birth.
And here he met the terrapin
Beloved first creation
Before the beasts on wing or fin
Before the world's foundation
Before the gods themselves he wrought
This friend to call his own
And none can know the joyful thought
"No more to be alone"
Deep within the desert near
A secret, hidden spring
The creature slept from year to year
Woke seldom but to sing
His mournful voice made warriors sleep
All argument to cease
Eyes were dried that endless weep
Each heart was given peace
For seven years the song would roll
Throughout the day and night
Until the country, healed in soul
Admitted Heaven's light
And in this way, the Terrapin
Preserved the human race
And then he went to sleep again
And left them to their fates
And in his song he spoke to Yu
Of everything on Earth,
All that happened, old and new
From the moment of its birth
Of heroes and misbegotten,
Of matters great and small
Nothing was forgotten
Old Terrapin told all
And at the finish of the tales
The long and ancient list
Yu told of his own travails,
With the demi-goddess Ist
The Terrapin was half-amused
And half-perturbed at this
His counsel never was refused
He cautioned thus of Ist:
Only half a god is she
For Earth her nature yearns
Send the wayward one to me
The things of Earth to learn
I'll teach her of the land and sea
And all that swim within
Of human hearts' complexity,
Of duty, rank and kin
Of sacrament and sacrifice
Of poverty and need
Of honesty and artifice
Of treachery and greed
Of this and every other thing
Of scripture and of song
Of changes that the seasons bring,
Why Winter nights are long
When all has been revealed to her
When every art is learned
When nothing is concealed from her
And charity discerned
I'll loose her from my tutelage
And send her home to thee
Freed by reason from her rage
And ask one boon for me -
That I may quit this endless round
That holds no joy for me
And rest in dreamless sleep profound
For all eternity
Yu's reply was lost
on Elmo, who snored loudly in the brilliant sunshine. He dozed till sunset.
Isa sat on the rock for a long while, watching him through the wrong end
of the spyglass.
When she had seen all she wished to see, Isa tossed the
spyglass alongside the sleeping boy. "Mirror," she said decisively,
left the rock and waded out past the small frothing breakers. Facing shore,
she threw her right hand over her head and sprang lightly, shaping her back
to the curve of the wave as it touched, melting into the curl, whirled round
once and slipped from sight.
Elmo awoke at sunset, alone. He wasn't disturbed. Isa
likely had gone for fish to vary their clam and berry diet. No sun remained
to start a fire with his spyglass lens. He noticed disapprovingly that the
objective lens was face down in the sand. Carelessness! He examined for
scratches and, though it was dark, thought he saw some.
Isa enjoyed fires, approached them with awe, tried to
dissuade him when he extinguished one. He argued that driftwood was scarce
and that he'd spent an hour a day for the last two weeks keeping the fire
supplied. Isa ate her clams raw and said she didn't care if they had a fire
or not, but that it seemed a shame to put one out when you had one.
Since Elmo created the fire by focusing a tiny image of
the sun, she reasoned a bit of the sun itself visited them and should be
treated respectfully. Elmo couldn't truthfully deny that this was so, but
didn't see what difference it made considering that it couldn't be used
up, although the wood could.
Elmo said he always damped fires at home, and she replied
that it showed what kind of home he came from; "If all the people in
Terrapin are like that, it's no wonder you ran off."
Not wishing to strengthen an already incorrect impression,
Elmo admitted exaggerating, hoping to end the absurd dispute. When she demanded
to know why he had lied, he said in exasperation, "To tease a silly
girl!"
He took the whistle from his pouch and tried the melody
Isa had been chanting earlier. That song about night being a bolt of dark
cloth. She probably believed it. Were the stars just holes in the cloth
letting spots of daylight through, in her view? Or were they jewels sewn
on by the gods? Ro and he knew they were something else entirely.
No, stars were not holes in the fabric; he saw it confirmed
as one of them dropped from the sky and fell at such an angle a dreamy observer
might think it landed down beach. Elmo suddenly jumped up and ran as hard
as he could, outspeeding his frustration, searching for the fallen star.
But no bright thing from celestial heights was to be found, only more sand.
Down he flopped panting. He decided to spend the night
right where he was and dug a pit for shelter, laying a few sticks of driftwood
on top and covering them with fronds of seaweed over which he strewed handfuls
of warm sand. It was snug and cozy. Only his head protruded.
If Isa missed him, it served her right. She might learn
to announce her goings. It was good to be utterly alone for once in two
weeks. She watched him like an insect under glass. Still, it was lonely
on this vast beach without company. Isa was at least that and they had enough
fun to keep him from dwelling on the impossible ascent home, but if she
was going to start running off without warning, that was a different matter.
She should at least consider his feelings. What if he
were worried that she'd drowned? Was he? He thought about it and wondered
if he should be. He wasn't, but what if he was? She wouldn't care any more
than she cared for the spyglass she tossed so offhandedly in the sand. She
didn't think about anyone but herself. That's what made her so boring. She'd
liked the Rough songs but did she thank him for teaching them to her? No,
and if he missed a beat or played a jarring note on the whistle while accompanying
her, she always stopped cold. Sometimes she refused to finish the song and
if he showed any sign of displeasure she just might not sing the rest of
the day.
Another star fell, but so far away it must have landed
across the ocean, over in that place he used to see when he went up on Aor's
kite. Echo had told him about it and when he looked for it he thought he
did see it, the golden lily fields out past where the giant snakes stuck
their heads up over the horizon.
Echo was a funny girl. You could get her to believe anything,
but she would do the same to you if you weren't careful. She mixed made-up
facts with things that might be true until there was no way of telling.
His thoughts turned more and more to home - the place,
people and ways he knew. He wondered whatever had happened to Lo after Lit
died. Not all that sorry to see her go, she was nothing but a tease, though
he liked her well enough. She thought she knew everything. Isa was a tease
too, but in a different way. She didn't know anything at all. Her songs
had an answer for everything, but she didn't think for herself. They were
just words to her, something to string a melody on. Stupid. Time to think
about climbing home. The ocean murmured gently and he fell asleep wondering
if he should take some clams back to Terrapin.
Elmo dreamed he walked a black sand beach where waves
of milk splashed ashore. All he saw was black and white, seabirds, sky,
horizon. He walked the sand for hours, naked, shivering, shrill of cicada
and hush of white waves breaking, wind hard but inaudible.
About to die, and soon, he knew he must, he saw a patch
of color some distance down the beach. His spirit revived. Drawing closer,
the patch took the appearance of a woman. Coming closer yet, he realized
the woman was several times his height. The colossus was a statue of Isa.
As he gaped, her four arms began moving, jointlessly, serpent like.
Six-breasted, she glittered with silver scales. A rumble
issued from her parted lips. Each hand held an item of menace: whip, torch,
hatchet and trident. Her breasts were tipped with lidless staring eyeballs
and her hair stood straight away from her head. Her expression was severe,
the eyes of her head were coals of blue fire.
As he stared in fearful wonder, Elmo became painfully
aware of his nakedness, but did not try to hide it. It was beyond hiding.
A powerful current of desire enflamed and enlarged him until he felt near
to exploding.
All the eyes of the statue were fixed upon this flagrant
protrusion. They grew ever brighter and more menacing as the member engorged
to heroic proportions. . . and then he did burst, splattering the legs of
the statue with wave after wave of crimson seed. It ran down her legs and
puddled at her feet, staining them .
Eight eyes riveted on him, as though demanding explanation,
he hung his head, exhausted and detumescent. There was a long moment of
silence. The cicada stopped shrilling. The white waves were silent. Then
slowly, the sound of the wind became audible, faint at first, gradually
ascending to a deafening roar. From the motionless lips of the statue issued
a terrifying hiss, followed by strange words:
"Sagatha Ka!" she raised the hatchet, and, with
a sudden accurate swing, emasculated him. The severed part fell to the ground
and exploded in blue smoke.
"Sagatha Ta!" thundered Isa, and thrust the
torch in his face, burning away his youth, leaving his face ancient.
"Sagatha Ha!" she roared, and from the eyes
of her breasts flashed rays of dark light which entered his own eyes, destroying
all but hateful memories.
"Sagatha Va!" The whip lashed out and the tongue
crosshatched his flesh. At the center of each wound erupted a stinging boil.
"Sagatha Pa!" her mouth spewed dark blue blood
upon him. All of his senses produced, of themselves, whatever degree of
light, taste, sound or touch was least bearable to them: blinding lights,
screaming, tintinnabulation, foul taste, intense heat, stinging, clawing,
slapping.
"Sagatha Sa!" She pronounce the words with a
voice like the swarming of hornets and pierced his heart with her trident.
The flesh of pain cracked, shattered and fell away in dust. All evidence
of mortality vanished and he stood in his eternal form, filled with blue
radiance.
"Eula Bondi," concluded Isa, in a voice melodious
and soothing, as she drew him toward her with a magnetic force, allowing
him to flow through the portals of her monolithic thighs and out the other
side, into a garden of similar blue spirit beings. Looking back, he saw
her standing tall as the pillars of the Giant's Harp, staring distantly
toward the land of wakefulness.
Her feet rested upon an immense domed shell with octagonal
markings, as of a tortoise. She had only two arms now. Her right was raised
high, her left held a fan of gleaming coral. Each strand of her hair floated
independently and electrically, filling the air with a crackling hum. Something
mysterious and terrifying could be felt gathering in the air.
He suddenly fled down the dilating iris of a tunnel which
opened in empty space, leading to a dreamscape of confused, disordered fantasies
where he languished until morning.
The boy awoke to the sound of squabbling gulls, worried.
He arose, wrecking the sand and seaweed cocoon, and ran back to his familiar
stretch of beach. It was so early the tide lapped at the foot of the rock
where Isa usually lolled. She was nowhere to be seen. A group of other Schulas
sat close to the cliff, one crooned a disquieting lament:
My love lies bleeding on a rock
The rock lies in the sea
Rise you waves and crack the rock
Return my love to me
Return my love, though cold and dead
His body drained of blood
That I may take him to my bed
Return him on your flood
One Schula nursed
a child. She met his glance but looked away quickly as Elmo approached.
She was pretty, not markedly favored like Isa, but lovely enough to be the
prettiest girl in Terrapin. Next to Lo. Or maybe Echo, who was beautiful
without being pretty. Crimson as sunset, pale as snow. Well, not really
but that sounded nice. She was ruddy enough to support her freckles, so
Ro had said.
A grandfather was eating clams as he gathered them from
beneath the wet sand of the shore, opening them with an iron tool he wore
on a seaweed thong around his neck. The old Schulo's one tool did many things.
He could hurl it with great accuracy at a target, it was both hammer and
drill, made a good broth spoon, and was useful for starting fires when struck
against a piece of flint into a handful of sagebrush tinder.
The mother sang as she suckled the child:
Everything out of the sea is salt
And all of the sea is brine
That thou art gone is nobody's fault
Nay, nobody's fault but mine
Though the mother,
pouring melody and milk into the tale of abandonment, ignored Elmo, the
grandfather nodded as he sat down to listen and pry open clams. Only the
infant seemed curious, her violet eyes following Elmo's every motion.
Everything out of the sea is salt
Salt are these tears of mine
That I am alone is nobody's fault
Nobody's fault but thine
Salt, sand, coral and brine
Will O'the Wisp in the wind
More have I been sinned against
Than ever I thought to sin
Careless of offending
the Schula at song, Elmo asked the old man if he'd seen Isa but got no reply.
When he was rude enough to ask a second time, the song stopped, the family
arose in a body and stalked into the frothy tide, the infant bobbling easily
behind. A wasp then stung him and a gull delivered a carefully aimed load
on his head. The wind seemed to chuckle. It's laughter was low and feminine.
Elmo spent the time until mid-day sulking on the sand.
His irritation at Isa began to give way to that strange new sense of longing
she raised in him. Justifying and pardoning her, he remembered the attention
she had shown him: the half lung full of air when he was struggling beneath
the shattered sea dome, the wonderful singing which even the elements gathered
to hear, the jealousy around other Schulas, the healing of his finger which
had awakened such disturbing and unusual thoughts.
Thoughts of this led to another round of irritation. Isa
could desert him easily enough, but it wasn't possible to desert her in
turn. This seemed an unfair situation that she was taking advantage of.
She must be very angry. He tried to remember if he'd done anything to cause
it. Couldn't think of anything. Maybe she was just bored with him. She was
pretty boring herself, always brushing her blond, or was it brown, hair.
And staring at him with those questioning blue (or were they green?) eyes.
He found it inexplicably difficult to remember her face.
When he almost pieced it together, an eye, an ear, a feature at a time,
the image dissolved to be replaced by wrathful Isa of the dream . . . imponderable
Isa of the colossus.
There was really nothing to do but fall asleep, which
Elmo did. He slept until dusk, awakened by the hiss of the sun entering
the waves. Loneliness settled with all its weight. It deepened with fading
day until, night come, it was complete. He sat on Isa's rock and, to his
own amazement, wept.
When there was no more to weep, he plodded to the cliff
and considered, by moonlight, the path by which he'd come.
He climbed to where the mirages had parted two weeks before,
revealing the jut of rock from which he'd made his final leap. He sat beneath
a sail leaf tree. The leaves of this tree would make a good ground cloth
should he decide to camp here. And they would do for blankets. He'd need
them. A rising North wind rippled the leaves.
The surf churned and pounded while the full moon tugged
at the tide. In an hour the foam lapped the base of the cliff. The beach
was gone, except for a few prominent markers such as Isa's favorite rock.
Why hadn't she warned him? She must have known! Elmo he examined the moon
with his spyglass until it set. The scratch on the lens gave it a vivid
purple halo. He was halfway glad the tide kept him from waiting down there
for Isa. In case she was spying, he didn't want to give her the satisfaction.
Suddenly he no longer felt ashamed to picture her in the heated fantasies
his mind presented, despite his conscience. She'd left him to be caught
by the tide. What better did she deserve? He gave himself wholeheartedly
to the arousing images and fell asleep afterward.
No dreamland gate arose when he fell asleep; the edge
of a forest appeared. Hundreds of eyes lurked in the branches. They did
not menace.
A great circle of animals sat in a clearing, among them
Aor and several other Roughs known around Terrapin. All were mute, motionless.
In the center of the ring stood Isa, no longer monolithic, merely tall and
stately, shining with diamondic blue, as did her eyes which focused nowhere
but saw everywhere. The coils of her hair lived a life of their own, though
the color had changed to red, churning and twisting around her face as it
had in his last dream, which he remembered he had dreamed, though he did
not know he was dreaming as he remembered.
Elmo sat on the outside of this circle through the night,
a dream without event, only the mute presence of Isa and the watchful animals.
When he awoke, it was as though the dream continued: Isa's hair became the
very vigorous North wind which blew stronger by the minute.
Elmo stripped a handful of currants from a bush and added
a few scarlet Harp Plant berries, which the children of Terrapin were warned
not to sample, but he'd learned better from Aor, who would pop a few of
the "poisonberries" in his mouth whenever he passed a Harp Plant.
The Harp Plant bore berries of two colors. The children were free to eat
the sweet blue berries, but the poison myth and bitterness were enough to
dissuade children from eating the red. Adults brewed liquor from their juice.
The narcotic properties of the red berries served to spirit away the last
trace of Elmo's depression.
Storm clouds, some hours still from shore, were visible
on the moonlit horizon. He decided to make the climb. No worry about drinking
water this trip, the rain would provide, and there were plenty of niches
and caves to hide in. An hour's scrabble at the cliff convinced him ascent
was impossible by the old route. What he jumped down, he could in no wise
jump up. He realized he knew that anyway. But the red berries had given
him courage to make double sure.
He looked for a lateral passage, hoping for a new avenue
of access, and discovered a place where he could climb a few hundred feet,
but after poking through briar bramble and thistle for an hour, he ended
up on an exitless ridge overlooking his campsite. He had to go back around
to get down and recovered his former ground lacerated and planless.
His sail leaf blankets were gone. The strong wind had
carried them off like kites. The attached leaves of the sail tree itself
snapped and cracked like banners.
He recalled the less windy afternoon he had sailed aloft
on a kite made of them, old Aor skillfully plying the kite string. It occurred
to him that a kite would be about the only way out of here.
There were plenty of leaves, and the wind was strong enough.
The red berries discounted danger of themselves. All he lacked was twine
to stitch the leaves together and someone to hold the cord. The roots of
the Harp Plant were thin and strong, they would do for thread. Elmo uprooted
all the young harps growing either side of a hundred foot stretch of trail.
A splinter drew the thread, and the twigs of the older harp plants were
supple enough for bracing. Decision made, his kite was sewn within an hour
and braced in two. Of course, there was no one to hold the rope - and no
rope to hold. The red berries advised him to never mind that.
The storm front had nearly reached land as Elmo prudently
wrapped his body with sheets of sail leaf in case he got dragged along the
rocks.
It occurred to him that he could abandon this dangerous
enterprise and return to the beach. It occurred to him he could not. Settled
on that, he moved out of the shelter of trees, holding his kite obliquely
to the wind so it wasn't ripped right out of his hands. He climbed to the
top of the tallest sail leaf tree. He cut a leaf off and watched what it
did. Right up the cliff face it flew. Well, why not?
He leapt into the wind.
Holding onto the front brace, Elmo kicked his feet back,
hooking his toes on the rear brace as Aor had taught him. He entrusted himself
entirely to the wind, did not doubt the updraft would be fortuitous and
grounding easy. Suicide was far from his intention, though he could in no
wise guide the kite, only follow the course of a leaf in a gale.
He wondered if it was the poison of the red berries that
made him see the shining tendril, messenger of Isa's song in the dream from
which he awoke teetering on the verge of the cliff. The tendril reached
from the cliff face to his kite and began reeling him in and playing him
out with as much skill as Aor, changing its length elastically to preserve
his distance from the rock.
It suddenly snapped and he was cut free in the wind and
borne out to sea. Out and out and up and up, and, in what should have been
his panic, he found himself thinking of Isa, of her body, of his wounded
finger, of his damaged pride. Then of his descent to the beach. Then of
his playmates, red haired Echo and pale Lo . . . the games they used to
play. He thought of his long dead mother and could feel her presence, the
gentle rock of the cradle, birth . . .
The wind shifted and suddenly he was blown back toward
the cliff, though high above it. Over the Giant's Harp he sailed and, in
a clap of thunder, the vagabond returned to Terrapin as the storm exploded
in full fury, forcing the kite down with the weight of a good soaking and
a down draft, not gently.
Wolf O'the Wild
Elmo lay in bed three
months, left leg broken in as many places. Aor changed his cast three times
as the boy outgrew each.
"If you outgrow this one in the next two weeks, it'll
be too bad. It's time for my yearly howl."
"That means the barber, the dentist, the doctor,
the smithy, the roofer and the trash collector will all be gone. Terrapin
will have to close down for the fortnight," said Ro looking up from
his astronomical chart. "I will tend to each of these
duties in turn and entertain the children in my spare time, but I will have
my two weeks with my kin," growled Aor, tightening the tape till Elmo
winced, then loosing it a bit. "Still tender, eh? All right, when the
tenderness goes, you can start testing it. I've never fixed bones that grew
so fast. It might improve the mend or it might hinder it. Either way, it
can't hurt you to keep to your bed another month."
"You said two weeks!"
"I said no such thing. I said I've got to go sing
with my wolfenkin for two weeks and I'll look at it when I get back. Make
a note of that Ro, lest you both forget. Have you been rubbing onion into
the tape like I told you?"
"Yes, Aor," said Elmo, who had not. Nor had
Ro enforced the prescription. He cared no more for the reek of onions in
the small house than did his son. Though he had the greatest respect for
Aor's abilities as bone setter and tooth extractor, he had little faith
in his remedies which ran the gamut from onions whole to onions sliced,
juiced and aspirated.
"You've been seeing to it have you, Ro?"
At that moment a knock at the door kept Ro's tongue free
of lie or evasion. Gia entered without waiting to be asked. Aor stood and
Ro put down his pen respectfully.
"I will come right to the point, Aor," said
the ancient woman.
"The boy . . ." began Aor.
"Is old enough to hear. He's been to the Schulas
and come back. Many have not. When they don't, the ensuing trouble is less.
The longer he stays off that leg, the better all around. I do not refer
to his health, Aor. It is your intention to go to the winter howling at
the Ebo?"
"It is my duty sworn and my desire."
"I see. I cannot forbid it or I would. You may do
less harm than good if things pass as I foresee, but don't ask my blessing.
Are you girt for battle, Ro?"
"I will do my year's transcriptions in two weeks
time. I can do no more."
"Nay, nor any of us. We can still speak our minds
until the stranger from the desert comes. But when he does, day by day more
silence must prevail."
"Then we Roughs must sing the louder through the
darker nights of winter. By Yu, may the stranger not appear!" prayed
Aor.
"Save your throats. He comes not 'til Summer."
"Will he be like the other?"
"More like the first than were the second or the
third, Ro."
"That was before my time."
"Well I know. T'would be wise to practice for the
coming silence by not saying what need not be said. Then it will be a natural
thing in its time. Good-bye. I am going to look in on Echo."
Gia left, Ro relaxed. Elmo was amused to see his father,
Aor for that matter, reduced to schoolboy status before the mistress. He
believed none of her nonsense. She stuffed everything into her pipe dream,
even Isa. As for Ist, Elmo didn't believe in gods, less a demi-goddess,
and was hence ill-equipped to discern such a one, not for lack of opportunity.
"Echo is in for a hard time," Aor said.
"Maybe not. Gia's more easy on Sod's daughter than
on most of her broodlings."
"Only because she must be. Echo is frail."
"Echo? Frail?! said Elmo. The frail one had once
blacked his eye when he teased her about her flaming tresses once too often.
*
Gia passed several itinerant
Roughs on her way to the home of Sod the wheelwright. She didn't like Roughs,
as much for their onion reek as for their want of civilized principles.
Aor stood proof they could be useful citizens, without losing their touted
untamed streak. The majority wandered nomadically, inciting susceptible
village youth with wanderlust and disdain for education. Fortunately, Terrapin
was difficult of access and their visits were infrequent. When they came,
they stayed a fortnight, camping at the Ebo Oasis, eighteen furlongs into
the desert. They set up such a howl, all night, every night, it was heard
in Terrapin.
Gia did not have to look far for Echo. She stood in a
crowd gathered around a Rough named Gorg who entertained with a mild version
of one of the raucous songs of the pack.
Gia caught Echo drinking the song like a cat lapping cream,
shaking her thick red braid to and fro, when Gia pinched her sharply on
the arm and spoke loud enough to ruin the charm of the song for Gorg and
his spectators: "Come along, Echo. I want a word with you at home."
Echo's violet eyes winced from trance to focus as she
obeyed the old mother with neither pleasure nor question. The Rough cleared
his throat, offended, unhappy at the loss of this pretty and fervent spectator
who looked back and waved. Gia did not notice since Echo walked on her blind
side. Had she noticed she would have said nothing about the low bred act
of waving in public. Or indeed anywhere. Waving was for mounted Captains
urging their troops to war. Or Schulas. Low bred but highly born, thought
Gia of Echo, whom she loved with a love beyond her will to question, a love
having to do with another love, and before that, near the dawn of memory,
another.
Gorg summoned up the Wolf O'the Wild again, where he'd
been cut off, as though nothing had happened and soon had his audience of
loitering youths and unemployed elders re-hypnotized.
Jack O'the Wild, Wolf O'the fen
Soul of the pack, faces of men
Brothers of all, Servant of none
Run by the moon, sleep by the sun
Wolf O'the Wild, hear me plead
I have served you till I bleed
I have fought at your right hand
Free me to mine own command
Jack O'Roses spurned your curse
Jack O'Diamonds stole your purse
Jack O'Rifles shot your mate
Jack O'Whispers sealed your fate
Wolf O'the Wild, hear me plead
I have served you till I bleed
I have fought by your right hand
Free me to mine own command
Silver money, Silver bars
Silver needles, Silver stars
Silver castles, Silver skies
When a boy is born an old man dies.
*
The house of Sod rocked
with snores. The wheelwright made his wares so well they never broke so
he had no business. He slept all day and when he woke he ate everything
in the house then amused himself shocking (he thought) his daughter with
crude tales of war before going back to sleep or rolling off to the Nine
Hammers, where he would fall asleep over his sixth pint and need to be shaken
and told to go home long before closing time.
Whenever he slept he snored, from the moment his eyes
closed till they opened. No common snore this, but a rich and varied repertoire
of gagging, retching and other digestive functions at flabbergasting volume.
Sod was tolerated and given free beer in return for the
immense bar with carved-in seats he hewed and chiseled from a walnut trunk,
four years labor for the wheelwright. He was the maker of the Sign of the
Nine Hammers as well, carved twenty years ago.
The motif of that wheel of oak, whose spokes were nine
arms at right angles, bent at the elbows, wielding hammers, was taken from
an a similar icon sculpted of obsidian at the western portal of the Giant's
Harp. Sod's wheel revolved, but only in a strong North wind. Except, according
to local lore, when Gia passed, though none ever saw this since the old
mother avoided that street of the town. Unwary drunkards were apt to catch
a painful whack when a sudden wind blew from seaward.
"Mind the hammers," was innkeeper Dor's usual
good-night to customers and "Knocked by the Nine" was local slang
for a hangover, a phrase spread by the nomadic Roughs until it was used
by the citizens of towns who knew nothing else of Terrapin.
In the opinion of many, Aor's wife Pisey in particular,
Sod's snoring had killed Echo's mother and would be the end of Echo too,
who was often seen with dark rings around her violet eyes, nearly asleep
on her feet.
She had dropped and broken every piece of porcelain in
Sod's house in her sleep-deprived state. Sod happily replaced them with
items carved of wood. It gave him something to do and he was never happier
than when crafting something needful from wood - though it never crossed
his mind to sculpt something on his own. It had to be needed. One day he
returned from the Nine Hammers to find the remains of a thick oak mixing
bowl in the trash, cracked down the middle. He never found out how Echo
accomplished that and it was useless to ask. She blanked out for minutes
at a time and remembered nothing.
Sod, who happened to be awake, saw Gia coming up the walk
with Echo in tow and quickly ran out the back door. He was in no mood to
be taken to task by the old woman who saw no good in him beyond his providing
for Echo.
"Father's not here," said Echo. Both noticed
tobacco smoke, but no comment was made. Gia had less wish to see Sod than
he had to see her.
"How has your father been treating you? Who do you
play with now?"
"Gia, I don't play with people. I am nearly full-grown,
you know."
"Well - I suppose you are, aren't you? These things
go by so fast I've stopped noticing. Yes, you have at that. Turn around,
let me look at you."
Echo obliged. Her young body had acquired the fruitful
curves of womanhood, her freckles had faded into her rosy complexion and
her hair, if it were possible, was redder than ever. Violet eyes, large
and bright, had a perpetually startled expression except when her "spells"
came, when they seemed to focus nowhere and everywhere at once.
"You remind me of someone I knew long ago,"
the old mother said dreamily, which startled Echo as no amount of snappishness
could have done.
"I do? Who?"
"Not your mother certainly and your grandmother very
little. No, its further back than that. I don't remember. Have you recovered
from your chill?"
"Yes, thank you. Aor told Father to make me eat an
onion a day."
"How did you manage?"
"I nibbled enough to get it on my breath and put
the rest down my dress."
"Have you learned to close your window in Winter?"
"I guess so. But it's funny about the cold. It doesn't
feel cold to me. In fact, the only time I ever feel really warm is with
the window open."
"No doubt. I know that chill myself. It's an old
friend now. You must make your peace with it. You could very easily die
warming yourself with frost, especially the way you 'go away.' You were
quite blue when Aor called me over. Have you seen anything of Elmo?"
"Not since he came back."
"That's good. He's a worthless boy and you would
do well to steer very wide of him."
"He doesn't interest me much anymore. He was fun
to play with when we were little, but he started hurting on purpose when
he got older."
"I don't think it was on purpose. Some people can't
help themselves. Like your father. He loves you but he has no way to show
it. Did you know he was moved into the barn to sleep with the stock when
he was five years old? He was already a snorer!"
"Do I know it? It's a point of pride with him!"
"Nevertheless, you could do worse; as has your friend,
Lo with her Uncle Eliot."
"I haven't seen her for years."
"Don't you ever wonder about her?"
"Well...I guess not. I just sort of forgot about
her."
"As has everyone else. I myself know nothing. My
legs are not up to walking to the Southern gate. I suspect she's being mistreated
or we would see her about, but I cannot oversee everything and I've trouble
enough to deal with within walking distance."
"Maybe I should go see her. Which house is Lo's?"
"The last before the gate."
"I wouldn't want to run into Eliot though."
"Why is that?"
"Oh, I don't know - I get this dirty feeling whenever
he walks by, even if he doesn't see me. If he looks at me it almost makes
me ill. I can't tell what he's thinking, other than the obvious. I usually
can with people, you know. At least they don't often surprise me."
"Knowing what people are likely to do and what they
actually think are different things. I don't have the strength to consider
Eliot. I need it for a greater foe."
"You mean Ist?"
"I mean Ist, child."
"I don't believe in her."
"I saw you playing her to perfection at games."
"That's different. I don't play games anymore."
"No, I suppose not. But this time it's in earnest,
darling girl. Sit down, there is much I have to tell you. Little of it will
make sense. Ask me no questions. Remember what you can of it."
When Gia had spoken, in her harsh whisper, all she intended
to speak, which was not much, she stood by the aid of her cane and said
"Give my regards to Sod. He's probably quivering in the trash barrel
with the lid on. I can't imagine what he thinks I'll do to him if I catch
him!"
"Oh, no. Nor I!"
"One more thing before I go, Echo."
"Yes, Mother Gia?"
"Let me warn you, for what good it does me, to stay
away from the Roughs. At least until the Still Night has passed."
"Oh, I will."
"See that you do."
Echo shivered as the door closed. She understood very
well why Sod hid. Gia was scary. She looked out the back door. Sod had indeed
crawled in the trash barrel. The lid rattled with his snoring.
She left him undisturbed and gratefully took to her bed for a nap. But she
couldn't sleep. The odd things Gia had said turned around in her head. It
made no sense if you didn't believe in Ist. It made no sense if you did.
Jabajaba of Nikaba, what kind of a name was that, and who was he to her?
*
A puddle of candlelight
from Echo's window shone a yard into the dark and was cut off by the thickness
of the night. The solstice moon was hidden by clouds. It was the Still Night
of the Roughs.
Many a youth of Terrapin would gladly have joined the
pack to rage away in ecstatic howl on a Winter's night. Those not filled
with shudders were moved with admiration at their wild songs, so different
than the plaintive airs of the Schulas. Some townsfolk stopped their ears
with candlewax to drown the sound, determined to sleep. Some heard the songs
through a haze of Harp Plant berries steeped in grain spirits.
It was rumored that during this time the Roughs dropped
to all fours and did not cook their meat, or care what that meat was. The
tone of their songs during the first week was on appropriate to tales of
daring do and high adventure. But the songs they sang, throughout the second
week, leading to the Still Night, spoke of fear and, as the day itself neared,
of terror. Finally, before they stopped singing altogether, of blood alone
were the ululations, in a language known but to them, a singing of sounds
akin to the lament of wolves. After the Nights of Blood came the Still Night,
when they were presumably bled out.
The Still Night was most fearsome of all. Ears used to
being stoppered searched the unaccustomed stillness and men couldn't sleep
for absence of the disturbance they had come to expect. Echo slipped from
her bed, slipped on a jerkin of sail-leaf, wrapped a hide of fur over her
shoulders, drew on her calfskin boots and stole into the quietness.
Had she been asked her plan she would not have known.
She was one of those to whom the most chilling music of the pack spoke directly.
It sounded to her as it did to them, lusty and compelling rather than fearsome
and abrasive. It was in no case as jarring as the sounds to which she was
used, the one thousand and one permutations of the strangled groan which
issued in an unending torrent from the sleeping lips of Sod.
The new snow had a patina of ice so that it made a crackle
at each step, before crunching with a sigh as Echo headed toward the Southern
edge of the village.
She soon turned a pale blue and her breath escaped in
huffs of cloud. She felt no cold. Her stride was loping as she headed toward
the desert. Her violet eyes looked everywhere and nowhere. She saw everything
and nothing.
The darkness lent itself to elaboration. The pines of
the desert margin became giants and the thicket of mimosa along the path
became dancing girls attempting to entice them. The wind hummed like a bowed
bass string.
Goblins peered from under the skirts of the mimosa women
and shook threatening fists at the men and at Echo. Snakes hissed out of
the mouths of the giants, turned to fire and dropped on the ground to pursue
the goblins back to the safety of the mimosa skirts.
To Echo's imagination the Still Night was filled with
sound and action as she rushed to the source of the howls which had called
her throughout the weeks, surpassing in intensity, at last, even the plate
rattling snores of Sod.
She ran, no more asleep than awake, through the white
margin of desert which extended from the Southern gate to the Ebo Oasis.
She saw huge swimming things in the night, winged things which breathed
fire and wore many heads.
Echo had, in her time, spotted more of these fabulous
creatures than any dozen children of Terrapin combined. She could see the
sparkling fumes of their nostrils breathing out crackling displays of aurora
at the horizon.
Once, aloft on a kite sailed by Aor (the only girl allowed
the privilege, at Gia's insistence), Echo thought she saw beyond the gulf
between the worlds, catching whiffs of perfumed wind from the Golden Lily
Fields which buoyed the kite ever higher and southward, until its string
escaped and it flew wild, over the snapping jaws of the creatures in the
gulf, coming to ground gently among the lilies. There the fantasy ended,
for her imagination, though broad, was not extensive enough to discover
anything to do among the lilies. Her dreams encompassed only the reaching
of them.
Under a similar spell Echo now sought out the Roughs.
Things stirred in her which were not content with fantasies of Golden Lilies,
though these things were likewise imprecise, knew only that they desired
and prompted Echo to respond.
As a child she had sought this desire while darting like
a minnow in the river which runs toward the northeast gate of Terrapin to
spill in cataracts to the ocean. The same desire flashed in the sunlight
of the riverbreast, again in the sudden glimmer of a stone, or at the bottom
of one of the whirlpools which dotted the riverbed. A system of nets and
stakes protected unwary children from swimming too near them.
The children were warned of great worms living at the
bottom of these whirlpools, whose delight was to wrap around a child and
squeeze the life out of it. The worms were said to be covered with eyes.
Each eye was the soul of a child the worm had squeezed to death. The congregated
souls which covered the worm's body were anxious to capture more children
for company as they grew bored with one another, living in the same body.
They were said to sing enticing songs from the whirlpools, hidden from sight,
pretending to be more beautiful and interesting than they were.
Echo had heard, or thought she heard, those songs. It
was difficult to be sure beneath the surface of a rushing river. She was
certainly brave enough, during one of her spells, to slip down a whirlpool
without thought, had they not all been fenced off.
Echo's senses elaborated the dismal desert terrain, trading
commonplace for rarity. The frost became flesh and her journey carried her
across the belly of a sleeping giantess, down her thigh and out between
her toes, or, again, the wind became water which bore her along her path.
She dropped to all fours and her nocturnal vision became
keener. The wind carried tastes rather than odors. Her sense of taste was
hunger itself, but not so keen as to be demanding.
Behind her on the trail lay her boots and the sail leaf
jerkin, only a wolfskin cloak remained to cover her blue skin. In this attitude,
Echo entered the circle of the Roughs in the midnight hour of their stillness.
The Still Night
Soft blue flakes
fell tinted by moonlight. Darkness was nowhere in the night where Echo lay
sleeping in snow. Aor lifted the young woman and carried her to the council
fire to thaw. The Roughs circled the fire in rings, a hundred of them, bleary
and shaggy.
After thirteen nights of howling, they awaited the coming
of Loup Aru, Wolf O'the Wild, in silence, voices blistered by song.
Wolf O'the Wild
Hear me plead
I have served you
Till I bleed
I have served you
Well and true
Wolf O'the Wild
Now serve me too
Jack O'Thistles
Black and bold
Drove me out
In the rain and cold
Jack O'Roses
Bold and black
Tracked me down
Then broke my back
Jack O'Lanterns
Robbed my sight
Burned my eyes out
With his light
Jack O'Doubles
Demon's Child
Hear my troubles
Wolf O'the Wild
...sang the Roughs upon the previous
Night of Blood. Tonight they paid the dues of excess. Solemn and utter stillness
was ordained of old for this night
In their center now lay Echo, close to the fire. The voice
of the fire alone spoke, in consonants of wood pitch snapping, hissing vowels
of steam.
Aor attended to the half frozen girl alone, so deeply
committed were his fellows to stupor. Harp Plant liquor swirled in their
veins. Aor had drunk only a meager portion in comparison to most. His devotions
to Wolf O'the Wild were serious, but of milder intensity. He was, after
all, civilized; had left the nomadic life to settle in Terrapin, marry and
live by his skills.
Aor was Rough enough, still, to join the two weeks howl
each year, though he sometimes missed the contents of the pots and pans
of his wife Pisey.
He massaged the small body with his thick hands and could
feel the life quicken beneath his attentions. Kindly brown eyes showed great
concern under flaps of black eyebrow and matted locks of wolf gray hair.
Raw meat and onions informed his frosty breath.
His fingers probed her flesh with a sensitivity belied
by their coarseness. He kneaded her legs and arms, until a flush showed.
After half an hour, as he rubbed the flesh around thighs so slender his
great fingers could nearly encircle them, Echo began to moan softly. He
crossed his thumbs over her belly and wrapped his fingers around her back,
kneading her midsection with his thumbs to "circulate the bile".
She moaned more loudly as vitality returned with attendant pain.
Aor carried the reviving girl away from the fire, so as
not to disturb the silence of the Roughs. He laid her on a bearskin and
returned to the fire for a flaming log which he set on a pile of sticks.
They caught quickly and he continued his ministrations.
Within her delirium, Echo lay in a warm meadow, the afternoon
sky alive with but